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2011-06-26T22:50:00.003+08:00

And As For Today,
Just Normal Family Sun-Day.
Sent Babyg To Eden Family Clinic For Consultation,
As She's Been Hardly Passing Motion.
So After Consulting The Doctor,
I Hope She Really Get Well Very Soon.
Then I'll Definitely Brings Her Out Again Like Normal.
After That, We Went To Buy School Shoes
For Hubby Lil Bro & Sis As They Are Starting School Tomorrow.
They Did Some Haircut Too.
Then Went For Family Dinner At Nearest Hawker Center.
Pictures Are Uploaded At My Facebook Album.
Home Sweet Home At 8.30pm :)
Hubby And His Lil Bro Went For LAN Games,
While I'm Here Surfing The Net Updating Some thing.
I'm Sure I'll Be Having Abit Fun When I Reached Home Later.
Cause Hubby And Me Will Be Having Movie Marathon At Home.
Catching Up Some Classic Malay Dvds.
Tomorrow No Plan :(
Maybe Accompany Hubby Go Enroll.
Hmm, Got Nothing To Type Alrdy, Left So Empty Now.
My Nose Starts Water Pipe Alrdy :((
Good Nights :D

2011-06-25T22:09:00.008+08:00

Hello Readers :D
I Know My Blog's Dead For So Long Already.
So I'm Here Just To Make It Alive.
I Only Have Around Half An Hour.
See ^^ I'm Getting Fat After 2-3 Weeks Didn't Work.
Been Partying With Hubby,
Shopping With Babyg And Her Dad,
Movies With Hubby.
That's What I've Been Doing For The Entire Weeks.
Feel Like The World Is Mine &
Money Are Just A Plain Of Paper.
Spending More Than $700 On A Day.
God, Please Tie My Hand & Leg So I Couldn't Go Anywhere
And Spend All The Money For Some Worthless Thing.

For This Lil Kiddo, She's 8th Months-Old Now.
And, She's Having A Stomach Pain Which Makes Her
Tummy So Bloated And Hardly Pass Motion.
That Is Why I've Been Absent Myself From Work,
My Dearest Tawandang Microbrewery Staff.
For Now, She Can Sit By Herself, Crawl, Likes To Mumbling WhatSoEver,
She Also Can Stands Up When She Hold A Thing To Support.
She's Becoming Naughtier & Naughtier.
Can Be So Fussy At Times Also.
There's Times I Liked To Test Her Ability.
Putting Her In The Middle Of Hubby & Me,
Then Put Toys In-front Of Her,
And When She Gets Tired Of Toys,
She'll Crawl & Turn Left And Right, Then Crawl Ups To Me
To Support Herself So That She Can Stands Up,
Like 'Macam Paham' Then She'll Definitely Falls Down.
When She Get Bored And Started Her Attitude,
I'll Surf Youtube And Tune Her Favourite Video ; Gummy Bear Song.
Mummy Love You So Much Lil Kiddo <3
May You Get Well Soon And Be A Good Girl In Future :D

And Lastly, This Rascal Over Here ^
I Can See He's Been Trying To Change Himself To A Better One.
I'm Proud Of Him.
A Few Days Ago, He Bought For Me Itouch 4.
Ask Me Out For A Movie Date For Several Times.
This Is The Movie We Watched Lately ;
Hangover 2, X-Men First Class, Laddaland & Fast & Furious 5.
We've Been Waiting For Transformer To Release This 29th,
If I'm Not Wrong.
Sadly, I Didn't Make Any Huge Surprises For His Burfday.
I'm So Sorry Sayaaaang.
But Mine Is Coming Around The Corner,
Maybe You Can Get Something For Me ?
Hehe, Tak Malu Nyeeeee :/
We've Been Spending Most Of Our Time At Home With Bbyg,
Rent Some Dvds ; Dilarang Masuk, Crows Zero 1 & Crows Zero 2,
Dalam Botol, The Ghost Must Be Crazy.
And Do Some Movie Marathon With Sweets Snacks .
Been Waiting For Our 3 Years Anniversary.
I'm Gonna Do A Huge Surprise For You Baby <3
I Love You So Much Hubby.

2011-01-03T23:09:00.006+08:00

Sorry for not updating for months .
I've been busy with this lil girl ^^
She's turning her third months old this coming 8th .
And start throwing out her tantrums .
I seriously can't wait to see her starts crawling ,
eating her cereals , walking and etc .
Bbyg is putting on more weight .
Her birth weigh is 2.4 , but now 4.5 .
Semakin hari semakin semangat :D
And semakin hari semakin tak larat aku nak dukung .
As for today , i send bbyg to NUH for check up .
And now , she have her follow-up with the doctor .
Hope to hear the best from the doctors and nurses about bbyg .
Hoping her illness will cure soon .

& for 01/01/11
I went to 'Kenduri Doa Selamat' at my parents new house
which is just nearby hubby's house .
As from there , i'm getting better with my dad and the rest .
It makes me happy and comfortable with everything in my life .
I'm hoping the atmosphere between me and dad
will just get back like how it used to be .
By there dad gave me 200 bucks for bbyg hospital bills .
Thanks daddy , i love ya :P
Well , i'm supposed to go to my parents house
after going to hospital as dad told to ,
but then we went off from there at 4pm and it's already late for bbyg .
Maybe i'll be going there tomorrow as dad wanted to
give me another 200 bucks for expenses ,
as he already gave all my siblings and relative the same amount .
Thank god i'm back with my family , but still staying with hubby .

Well guys , i'm shutting down .
Will update soon when i'm free .
Nights readers & Happy New Year ((;

2010-10-08T06:30:00.004+08:00

I Wonder, What Will Happen To Me In A Few Weeks Time.
Will I Be Safe In The Delivery Suite Or The Opposite Way ? -__-"
I've Been Hospitalized On 4th October. Doctor Said That I'm Low Of Blood
And My Body Doesn't Have Enough Iron, Due To That I've Been Warded
For 24 Hours. Because Of This, I May Have Trouble During Labour.
It Can Cause My Heartbeat To Stop If I Doesn't Have The Enough Energy
To Push Later. So It Means That, I'm Totally In Low Chances To Live After
Delivering My Child. Only God Knows How Anxious I Am. So, I'm Taking This Opportunity
To Live My Life To The Fullest With My Loved Ones. I Hope They Could
Feel The Same Way As I Felt Right Now. Every Night Tears Flowing Down,
And I Know It Doesn't Worth Anything. I've Been Praying For Own Health And
Safety During Labour. I Wonder, Do My Loved Ones Ever Offer Prayers To Me.
I Should Start Thinking By Now That My Life Is S H O R T.
My Cervix Has Opened 1cm And My EDD Had Been Extended To 9 November.
To My Fellow Friends And Lovely Family,
Do Forgive All My Sins Towards You Guys Okeeh (:
Lately, I've Been Down With Family Issues. If Only I Could Explain To Them
My Purpose And Reason. I Know Everyone Been Totally Down With My Decision,
But What I Chose Is By Looking At The State Of My Family.
I Want You Guys To Stop Suffer, And Start Living Your Life With Ease.
I'm Sorry Dad, I Can Feel That You Are Crying Inside But I Want You To Know
That, This Happened Because I Want You To Stop Working Hard To Find
The Money For Me And Child Later, I Don't Want To See You Suffer.
You Should Retire At This Age, Not Working Hard To Support Us.
Oh God, Please Make Them Understand My Condition.

Fellow Readers, I Know You Will Be Reading This With Your Mouth Wide Open,
I'm Just Letting Every Pain Out Of Me As I Doesn't Owned A Listening Ears.

2010-09-27T00:30:00.001+08:00

That Was The Scanning Photo I Took Last Two Weeks Ago .
And That Shows How My Little Brat At 33 Weeks :D
I Have Less Than A Month And There Goes ,
Hearing Baby's Crying Day And Night .
Looking At Baby's Little Tiny Booties , Made Me Anxious
About Labour . Can I Have My Baby Fast ? :P

Yesterday , I Met My Auntie At Swensen Jurong Point .
Me And Cousin Went For Ice-Cream , While Auntie Had Her Salad .
Talk`Talk And Munch`Munch , Till Her Other Daughter
Came With Her Boyfriend . After That Sleepover Her Place One Night .
And For Today , I Went To Yewtee .
It Was The Last Time I Stepped Into My House .
12 Years Plus Full Of Memories , Sadly It's Gone Now .
There's No Longer Laid The Memories Of My Late-Mother .
Berat Sangat Haty Nak Tinggalkan Rumah Tuh .
Well Said , Goodbye Yewtee )):

In A Sudden , I Envy Looking At People Who're
Holding On To Their Iphone Or Either Itouch .
I Feel Like Having One Because Of The Addiction Games .
D A M N , I'm Asking One From My Sister But I Get Nagging Instead .
Seydeeeeh Nye Hidup Aku !
Dah Kene Busted Dengan Jantan , Nak Barang Pun Digantikan Dgn Ngomel ):

2010-08-27T04:30:00.002+08:00

Life For Me Isn't Easy And Full Of Unexpected Things Happened -.-'
I Did Enjoy My Life But Only During My Childhood .
I Get Those Love , Care And Concern By Everyone , And
Also I Get Anything I Ever Wanted .
Great Isn't It ? I'm A Pampered Girl Since I'm A Little Kid .
I Get What I Want , If I Doesn't I Will Cry Like Nobody Business .
In The Aged Of Six Years Old , My Life Started To Change Bit By Bit .
First , My Mum Died When I Was Six ^^
By That Moment , I Started To Hate Doctors And Nurses ,
As They Forbid Me To Visit Mum When She Was In The ICU ,
Which Before She Passed Away The Next Day .
Then , Life Still In A Good Way For Me .
Dad Married Again When I Was Eight , I Guess .
I Was Bless By God That I Get A Lovely Step-Mother .
She's Nice , Caring , Soft-Hearted And More . But , The Love I
Get From Her Wasn't The Same As The Love I Received From My
Biological Mother . I Started Living With My Family When I Was Nine ,
And Transferred My School Which Is Nearer To Our Hometown .
As Time Passed By , My Life Getting Bad To Worse .
Slowly , Dad's Beating Gets Harder And Violence As I'm Getting Older .
He's Getting More Unreasonable And Use Beating As A Word To Talk .
I Get Frustrated With Him Sometimes .
But Like People Said , No Matter What He's My Father .
Then , I Become More And More Under Control .
I Smoke , I Ran Home , I Did Slightly Everything A Teenagers Does .
And Yes , He Did Caught Me . There's Always A Punishment .

Right Now , It Become Tougher And Tougher .
Everyone Of You Do Fall In Love . But For My Case , I Guess
I Fell In Love In The Wrong Way And With The Wrong Guy .
Maybe I Did Too Much Of Sacrifices , Too Much Of Loving Him
And Being Too Soft-Hearted . If I Wasn't Trap In His Sweet
Talking , I Might Not Get Into This Relationship Right Now .
In The First Few Months , Things Were Just Going Fine .
Therefore , I Begin To Love Him More And Deeply .
I Started To Gaining The Trust On Him . But , I Was Wronged .
Month By Month , I Started To Discover Every Of His Shits .
Countless Of Times I've Been Hurt By Him ,
Still I Have The Opportunity To Forgive But Not To Forget .
When We're Almost Reaching Our One Year Anniversary ,
He Started To Show His True Colours , I Mean His Violence .
I Really Hate That Part , Why Must It Show Up After
I Started To Love Him So Deeply .
In Fact , I Doesn't Have The Heart To Leave Him After All .
I Felt The Differences In Him -.-"
He Leave Me Alone In The House For Hours , While
He Went Out Enjoying His Life . None Of His Words Can Ever Be
Trusted Again . Seriously , I Lost My Trust Towards Him .
I'm In Seven Months Of Pregnancy , Still He Doesn't Stay By My Side .
Worse , My Senses Began To Tell Me That He's Been Seeing Other
Girls , Or Even Two-Timer Me . True Or False , I Don't Know .
My Life Sucks Big Time . Everyday My Routine In His House
Stays The Same . Wake Up , Cook For Him Food , Feed Him ,
Watch Movie , Play Game Then Off To Bed .
Everything I Have To Do It Alone .
I Washed Our Laundries , I Fold Them , I Make The Bed ,
I Swept The Floor , I Tidy Up The Room .
What He Does , Messing The Room Again And Again .
Then His Family Will Come Saying That I Doesn't Take The Time
To Clean Up The Room , Although I Already Did .
I Was The One Getting All Insult By People , I Get Those Bad Names ,
People Think Low Of Me , Always I Get The Beatings And
Feel The Pain , Why Must Everything They Gave It To Me ??!
I Wish There's An Ending For This ~

Baby , I Can't Take More Of This Anymore .
I Don't Want To Be Torture For All My Life . I Thought
You Are My Only One , My Everything , But I Guess
You're Not Treating Me The Same Way As I Did To You .
I Was Nowhere To Be Found In Your Heart , Cause I'm Not That Special
Girl Who Lives In Your Heart Forever . I Get My Answer Now ,
The One That I've Been Searching For ^^
All This While I Thought You Love Me Sincerely And Deeply
From The Bottom Of Your Heart , You Simply Can't Live
Without Me In Your Life , But I'm Wronged About That .
You're Fooling Around With My Heart And Just Waiting For The
Time To Let Me Off Your Sight . By The Way You Treated Me As ,
From There I Get Everything I Ever Wanted To Know From Your Heart .
Your Mistakes Are Safely With Me , I Won't Reveal It Here .
I Know Everything You Did , Although I Didn't Ask A Single
Question About It . I've Been Checking Through One By One ,
Watching Everything Of You . But Why Isit So Hard
For Me To Forget About You , To Stop Loving You ,
After Knowing Every Of Your Bullshit , W H Y ?
I Decided To Leave Your House Soon Enough , And Maybe
To Forget About You Forever , Although It's Hard But
I'll Try My Best . In The Matter Of Fact ,
I Do Love You So Much , Baby ♥
But I Don't Deserve This Way Of Love And Also Life .
Hope To Meet You Again In Our Next Life :D

2010-08-15T21:40:00.000+08:00

I'm Finding Perfect Baby Names For Both Gender , In Case (;
In-Need Before October , As My EDD Stated On That Month .
And Of Course , If Someone Out There Willing To Help ,
Do Leave Your Opinion At My Tagboard .
Thank You People :D

2010-08-14T01:50:00.001+08:00

I miss this little toddler ; Aqil Izz Anaqi ^^
Wish i could meet this little rascal . He's one of the naughtiest nephew of mine .
He goes around biting people's hand and shoulder , cries when
he didn't get the stuff he wants , love watching Geng The Movie by Upin&Ipin ,
wake me up early in the morning as he wants to climb up my bed
just to play around with the window , likes to clinging around with my mum ,
and to cut it short , he's hard to handleeee .
He's dimple I adore so much :P
When I'm at home , he really piss me off , but when I'm away ,
I miss every single thing of him .
Will try to meet you soon la Gemuuuuk .

Again , I changed my blog skin and edit some part of it , as I received
two complains from friends . It should be a little better right now .
Well , it takes more than a month for my mood to arrive
about changing background and everything .
If you people still thinks it wasn't the best , just bear with me okeeeh :D
I've change my tagboard to shoutmix and even added new song in my playlist .
I think that should be enough laa eyh -.-'

Time-check ; 1:30 AM
I've been playing games and watching movies for twelve hours already .
Boyfriend been sleeping soundly like a pig , and also
conquering the whole space , I push him towards the wall every minute .
HAHAHAHAHA , serve him right ((:
As for myself , I've been changing one position by another .
I felt so restless and my tummy burning inside ,
should go to sleep after this eh .
My little baby insideeee is enjoying herself ,
she kick and move around like nobody business .
Sorry baby , your daddy is sleeping so he won't feel you this time ,
but I will okeeeh :D

Been staring and glancing at boyfriend's face every minute ,
softly I touched his face and pampered him .
I just can't take my eyes of him ;)
When he turn to my side facing my back , he then hugged me gently ,
I felt safe and sound with his presence beside me every second .
It's like , I sense the Love heading back to our relationship and standing strong .
We've been living peacefully , no fighting or quarreling for the past two days
and I hope it stays like this forever , okeeeh boyfriend :D
I Love You So Much Baby ♥

2010-08-09T19:15:00.000+08:00

It been hours I spent my time on editing this blogger of mine . Browsing through layout by layout was very troublesome . I'm seriously bored like hell , boyfriend was still sleeping and i can't even shut my eyes as I've already slept in the morning , simply that's the reason why I'm so in the mood to change my blog skin -.-' I'm still not quite satisfied with my blog skin , but that's the best I can get . When I'm browsing pictures at boyfriend's lappy and even my facebook , then I realised that I've been lacking of taking pictures . Damn ! I want more pictures , so there's more memories , guess I have to wait till I give birth to my Little Princess . I hope it's earlier than the EDD given by the hospital =.="

Happy Burfday Singaporeeeee ((: Worse , it's Singapore's burfday yet I'm just rotting at home the whole day . But I guess it's good to be at home , as I know it will be superb pack out there and freaking hot . I don't have to squeeze to those peoples , get scolded by boyfriend cause I know I'll definitely get into dizziness and nausea :p I think I'm going to miss this year NDP , as boyfriend still asleep . His family currently at living room , I want boyfriend's accompany if I have to walk pass the living room or what . It's just that I'm not used to it ((; If I'm not wrong , tomorrow our fasting month starts . I miss breaking fast with family and friends )): Some more , I don't think I'll be celebrating Aidilfitri .

I have to stop here , as my stomach is asking for food , so it's time to disturb boyfriend's sweet dream . HuaaaaakHuaaaaaak :D

2010-07-28T23:40:00.001+08:00

Each Day I'm Putting Fake Smile On My Face .
The Pain And Struggling Into A Bunch Of Problems
Is Harder Than Just Putting A Fake Smile .
Everything I Kept Inside Of Me ,
I Just Don't Wish To Let It Out To Anybody ,
Not Even To Boyfriend .
I Don't Wanna Share My Burden As I Know
They Are Having Theirs Too .
What They Can Partly Do Is Just Take Good
Care Of My Heart And Feelings , That's All .

26.07 , I Turned Seventeen .
I Received Burfday Wishes From Family And Friends .
Never Did I Know I Would Still Be Blowing Out The Candles ,
As Boyfriend's Mum Bought A Chocolate Cake .
That Night I Celebrate My Burfday With Boyfriend .
Atleast I Had My Fun And Boyfriend Do Make Me Smile .
I've Made My Wish Before Blowing Out The Candles .
" I Wish The Person I've Been Loving For ,
Will Change Into A Better Man And Carries Out A
Good Future For Me And My Baby .
As He Will Stop His Nonsense And Violence
And Will Take A Very Good Care Of My Feelings .
I Want A Bright Future For My Coming Family . "
That Is What I Wish For And I Hope It Will Be Granted .
T H A N K S A L O T Boyfriend For This Day ((:

Today , I Strengthen Myself Up To Text Mum .
She Gave Me A Call , Thanks God There's No Questioning .
Mum Feels Happy When I Texted Her Just Now ,
As I Didnt Contact Her Since I Ran Away .
Talking To Mum Makes Me Relax , And Far From Problems .
I Hope Tomorrow Boyfriend Allow Me To Meet Mum *cross finger*

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Every Night Before Going To Sleep ,
I've Been Praying Hard For You And Baby .
I Just Hope What I've Been Praying Will Come True .
I Really Hate The Way You Are Right Now .
You Go With Your Flow And Just Left Me Out Alone .
What Am I To You , A Ball ?
Bile Taq Suka , Tendang Jauh Jauh , Gitu ?
I Don't Wish To Trouble You And Your Family ,
I Don't Wish To Stay Here Either ,
But I Left With No Choice , I Got Nowhere To Go .
I Know You Doesn't Like To Face Me All Day Long ,
You Doesn't Like My Stay Here And You Hate Everything About Me .
I Promise You , My Stay Here Won't Be Long .
Once I Find Some Place To Stay At , I'll Be Out Of Here
And Out Of Your Sight .
What I'm Asking For Right Now ,
Please T R E A S U R E Me While You Can .
I Can Sense That There's No Longer L O V E In Our Relationship

2010-07-25T18:00:00.001+08:00

I Just Can't Wait For This Little Kid To See The World.
By All Means, Coming Out From My Tummy
And Always Be By My Side.
It's Six Months Already, Still Have Another Three
More Months To Bear With Everything. Pfft ~
Bit By Bit, I'm Preparing Her Stuff.
This End Of The Month I'm Going Shopping With
Her Daddy And Her Granny.
Been Planning To Buy One Whole Set Of Winnie The Pooh.
Or Maybe Mickey Mouse. Hmms ~

I've Been Wanting The Baby Moses Basket Damn Much.
I've Gotten The Baby Crib Already, But
Moses Basket Still Preferable As It Is Small And Convenient ((:
Should Have Further Discuss With Hubby And Hys Mum.
There's Still Alot Of Things I Should Get Prepare Now.
I Still Need To Go To The Library To Get
Some Baby's Name Books And Baby's Books.
Damn, I Have To Run Here And There With My Heavy Tummy.
Wish I Could Left It At Home While I'm Away. LOL =X
Will Update Again Soon Okay Love.
I'm Browsing MotherCare Website :D

2010-07-12T04:42:00.004+08:00

I'm Dying , I'm Lost , I'm Speechless ~
G-R-E-A-T , Isn't It ?
Satu Satu Matykan Aku , Semua Back Up Orang Tua Tuh .
Baheek Uh , Macam Aku Jeq Sorang Yang Jahat Eyh ,
Yang Derhaka Dengan Bapak Aku .
Korang Semua Taq Penah Lalui ,
Taq Penah Rase Ape Yang Aku Kene Skrang .
Eyh , Korang Pun Penah Bawak Anak Luar Nikah Ape .
Tapy Ader Korang Kene Antar Pertapis ,
Anak Korang Kene Jual ,
Tyme Korang Mengandung Ader Korang Kene Bantai
Sampai Hidung Berdarah , Rambut Gugur
Berpuluh-puluh Helai , Muka Bengkak Semacam ,
ADER KORANG KENE TUH SEMUA TAQ ??!!
Taq Ade Kan , Bapak Aku Uruskan Jugak Pernikahan Korang .
Asal Aku Peyh Care Lain Eyh ?
Korang Taqde Pikir , Taqde Rase Ape Dalam Isi Haty Aku .
Aku Lary Pun Selamatkan Anak Aku Ape ,
Dia Rezeki Allah , Dia Taq Bersalah ,
Tapy Kenape Dia Pun Dihukum & Dibabit Eyh ?!
Semua Matykan Aku Ape , Taqde Pun Yang Naq Tolong ,
Aku Pun Taq Mintaq Pertolongan Korang ,
Aku Ader Kaki Ader Tangan ,
Aku Laa Yang Tanggung Anak Aku Sendiryk ,
Bukan Korang , Abeh Korang Susah Ape ?!
Nieq Ustad Aku Kate , Dalam Ugama Islam Taqde Terletak Pun
Seorang Bapak Selalu Betul & Kita Sebagai
Anak Dorang Kene Slalu Dengar & Buat Ape Yang Dorang Suruh .
Bapak Kaw Suruh Makan Taik , Kaw Makan Eyh ?!
Bodoh Kan , Taq Pakai Otaq !
Seorang Atuk Berniat Naq Jual Cucu Sendiryk ,
Masuk Akal Taq ?!
Kalaw Bapak Ader Rights Untuk Pukul Bantai Anak Sendiryk ,
Kenape Eyh Singapore Ader PPO ?!
Korang Buley Pegy Jahanam Laa Eyh .
Korang Naq Bobal Pasal Ugama ?!
Pegy Blajar Betul Betul , Pegy Kitab Qur'an Dulu Laa ,
Baru Bobal Ngan Aku !
Dah Cukup Bagus Eyh Aku Taq Buat Police Report ,
Kalaw Aku Buatkan , Standby Uh Cakap Ngan Orang Tua Tuh .
Nieq Bukan Naq Cakap Kurang Ajar Dengan Orang Tua ,
Tapy Kite Ajar Orang Tua Ape Yang Betul Dengan Salah
Dalam Ugama Islam .
Walaupun Aku Taq Di-didik Dengan Ugama ,
Aku Tawu Sikit , Ader Orang Bimbing Aku Pasal Ugama .
Taq Terlambat Ape Untuk Belajar .
Atleast Aku Buat Pun Demi Kebaikan Aku & Anak Aku .
So Whut's Your Big Problem ?
Aku Taq Ade Susahkan Korang Ape ,
So Shuddup Your BIG Mouth *SMILE*

2010-07-07T06:10:00.003+08:00

As Day Passed By , I'm Trying To Trust You Even Better , Realising That You're Trying To Change , Hoping That You Can Kick All Your Habits & Stubborn Behaviour , Hoping You As A Head Of The Family Can Support Both Me & Our Baby . But , Everything I Wish & Hope For About You , Will Not Ever Come True . You Said , " Bhy , Kalaw You Pikir Bukan Bukan Pade I Bukan Ke You Yang Buat Salah Pat Blakang I . Bhaby , Sumpah I Taq Main Main Blakang You , I Skrang Tengah Pening Kpale . Besuk I Naq Pegy Interview Dekat Fish & Co IMM , Diorang Naq Pakai Orang . Skrang Kpale Otaq I Pikir Pasal Keje Naq Caryk Duit Untoq Family Kite Akan Datang , Nanty I Naq Buktikan Pat Orang Orang Yang I Buley Support Family Kite . Lagyk You Cakap Gini , Buat I Makin Hampe Untuk Tuh Semua . " I Do Felt Touched After Reading This Message Earlier On Because You're Trying To Show Me That You Want To Change , You Have The Courage To Prove To Everyone That You Can Support Us Later . But , Everything Changed After I Look Through Your Facebook Profile . I Felt Damn So Disappointed ! I Even Feel Lyke Killing You Right Now , Throw You In A Rubbish Bin . Yes Palat , You're Right . I'm Changing , I'm Not The Old ' Dayahh ' You Knew After Those Years . A Ghurl Who's Caring , Soft-Hearted , Always Give In To Others . Maybe For Now , I Wont Be Lyke How I Used To , As People Are Stepping On My Head Cause I Gave Them Too Much Face . Now , I Fight For My Rights & I Want The Very Best For My Baby , Thats All . Without A Man , I Don't Die , I Don't Suffer . Right Now , If You Really Want To Live With Your Baby & Me , I Better Tell You First Okay , It Takes More Than A Year For You To Prove Me & Show Me That You Can Change Your Fucking Behaviour , You Have Your Job That Can Support The Both Us . If You Think You Can't Do What I Want It To Be As , Then You Can Jolly Fuck Off . You Want Your Baby ? Simple , No . Pompan Keliling Pinggang Ape , Suruh Dorang Branakkan Kaw Anak Uh . Asal Banyak Banyak Kene Amek Anak Aku Pulaq , Kaw Sape Siaak ? Aku Mak Die , Aku Yang Tahan Merane Selame 9 Bulan , Aku Yang Rase Saket , Semuanye Aku . Engkaw Sbagai Bapak Die Pun Taqde Buat Satu Peranan Uh . Whether You Like It Or Not , It's Your Problem . I Was The One Who Make This Up , So You're The One Who Have To Prove It To Me . Take Your Time To Think Over What I've Type Down Here , Then You Make Your Decision . Remember My Two Favourite Phrases ;

" What Goes Around , Shall Comes Around "
" What You Say , Is What You Wish For "

2010-06-28T22:45:00.004+08:00

` BabyGirl Kissing ((;

" It's 80% Baby Girl. Doctor Can't See
It Clearly, As Baby Is Crossing Her Legs. "

I Went For Ultra Sound Just Now At NUH
Early In The Morning .
I Spent About 80 Minutes Inside The Room ,
Scanning My Little One .
Imagine You Have To Lie Down On A Hard Bed ,
Scanning For More Than An Hour ,
With Air-Con Right Above You .
Daaamnnnnn ~
My Back Was Seriously In Pain ,
My Stomach Feels Lyke Throwing Out Everything ,
& I'm Shivering Cold Under The Air-Con )):
But After Looking At My Baby ,
Every Feelings , Pain & Emotional Gone .
I'm Just Smiling Looking At It .
Well , Crying Actually , It's A Tears Of Joy ((:
Doctor Said My Baby Size Is Small
Cause I'm Not Taking More Iron .
& Because Of That , I Need To Take Another
Blood Test . Siaaak Kan Dorang ,
Aku Dah Laa Benci Injection Nieq Semua ~
Hospital Is Making People Bankrupt Soon ,
Cause I've Been Given Another Vitamin Today For Iron ,
& They Asked Me To Put Aside Those Two Vitamins
That They Have Been Given In My Previous Visit .
Each Vitamin Already Cost Me Lyke $50 .
[ Alaah , Bukan Duit Aku Apee ]
I Took My Weight Again Today .
Last Two Weeks I Weighed 55.5Kg ,
Today I Weighed 55.9Kg .
Greaat Huh , Not Much Differences .
Must Find Someone Whose A Big Eater To Eat With
Me Everyday , So I Can Gain More Weight ((:
& By A Month , I Will Be A Lazy Asshole
Who Just Lyke To Laze Around & Kiss My Bed 24 Hours .
I Just Can't Walk Long Distance & Standing For Long Hours .
I Just Hate It When Nausea & Dizziness Attack Me
When I'm Enjoying At Outdoors .
So People , No Calling For Meeting ,
Outdoors Activities Or Whut In A Month Later .
Cause I Will Be Eating More & Kissing My Bed Every Second
Until I Give Birth ((:
My EDD ( Estimated Date of Delivery )
Is On 27th October .
Is It Hari Raya Already ? HAHA !
Duit Masuuk Aje Kaan . Beesssstttt Apeeee ~
When Dad Heard From Mum That The Doctor Said
My Baby Is Small , He Straightly Bought
Two Box Of Marigold Fresh Milk ,
& One Box Of Nutri Soy , Just For Myself .
Seriously , My Dad Is Turning Me Into A Cow .
Okay , I Really Have To Go Now .
Drink A Glass Of Milk Then Straight To Bed ((:
Goodnight Loves

2010-06-23T20:45:00.000+08:00

I Miss My One & Only Mr PalatClown ):
I Wonder Where He Is Right Now.
If Only He Knows That I Was Hoping For Hys Phonecall.
Yesterday Was An Awesome Meet Up With Baby
At Jurong Point.
I Did My "Pampering Little Girl" Behaviour,
I Sulked When I Didnt Get Whut I Want ((:
& I Also Get Sulk When Baby Scolded Me
About Smoking & Asking To Quit And So On.
I'm Trying To Quit Okay,
Quiting Wasn't Easy Job For Me Though,
But I'll Prove It To You That I Can (;

I Know That Baby Been Checking My Fb Account,
MSN, Blogger & So On.
Yet, He Still Cant Trust On Me.
I SWEAR I Didnt Play Behind Hys Back,
I Only Got Hym In My Heart.
I Laugh Out Loud After Reading This ;

Yan

gy tdo la!

hahaha

6:19am Me

palat lah pantat..

nk check2..

shayang nye pasal

dah tak nk uat salah

6:19amYan

hahaha

sape ni??daya ke palat?

6:20amMe

palat

6:21amYan

ouh...daya mane??

oi ok tk?walau ku msg sini sane sak

Baaabbbyyyy ,

I LOVE YOU DAMN MUCCH !

MEEETT UPP SOOONN OKAAY SAAAYAANGG ((:

2010-06-19T00:55:00.002+08:00

Happy Nineteen Monthsary Baby♥
~ The Day That I Accepted To Be With You Once Again,
To Be The Only One That Stays In Your Heart,
Nineteen-Eleven-ZeroEight When You Stole My Heart.
Everything Goes Lyke A RollerCoaster, There's Up&Down.
Though You Break My Heart Countless Of Time,
Still You're The Only One For Me.
There Are Times That I Hate You, Cause I Can't Erase
The Times That You Hurt Me & Put Tears On My Face.
But I Don't Complain, Cause I've Been Afraid That
You Would Walk Away.
Now I'm At A Place Where I Thought I'd Never Be,
I'm Living In A World That's All About You & Me.
It Will Be Hard For Me To Forget About You,
About Us & Even To Let You Go, One Day.
I Miss Those Time Spending With You,
Talking With You Till Late Night,
Laughing With You Lyke An Asshole,
Be By Your Side Every Second For Six Months.
Baby, Do You Remember My Last Two Days At Your House,
You Were Sick & I Took That Opportunity To Take
Care Of You For The Very Last Time
Before I Went Back Home.
Every Moments Of Us, Was Playing In My Mind Everyday.
How I Wish To Hug You & Kiss You Before Going To Bed.
Play With Your Lips When You're Asleep.
` I'm Crying While Typing Every Single Thing Here
Baby Missing For Two Days Already,
Even Today Our Anniversary, He's Nowhere To Be Seen.
No Call, No Text, No Anniversary Wish, Nothing At All.
I Wish He Knows That I Really Really Miss Hym
& Desperately Wants To Meet Hym SOON.
I Guess, Our Meet-Up On Monday Will Be Cancel,
As I Didnt Receive Anything From Hym.
To My Dearest Boyfriend,
I Love You Hundred Times Truckloaads ♥

2010-06-14T23:30:00.000+08:00

Thanks To My New Haircut ,
That Now I Look Lyke A Primary School Kid ):
My Hair No Longer Straight After The Haircut ,
Need Rebonding + Treatment SOON .
" KAKAK ! Make Sure End Of The Month Eyh ,
U Blanje Rebonding ! " *Wide Smile*
Okay , Skip !

Went To NUH Just Now .
My Appointment Was Given At 2.30pm ,
But The Tyme My Name Was Called By The Doctor
Was At Around 4pm .
KANINA Kan ~
Atlast , I Only Went For Check Up
& Hear The Heartbeat .
" Goshh ! Baby , Ur Heartbeat So Loud & Damn Fast . "
*Big Smile*
After That , I Have To Go For Urine Test Twice .
One Was At The Beginning , The Other One
Was During The Last Part Before I Have To Go
For My Blood Test .
I Weigh FiftyFive.Five KG ! Eee , Gemuknye Aku !
As I Said , I Have To Take Blood Test Right .
It Was A NICE One For Me ,
The Jarum [ Aleermaak ! ] .
Three Tube Straight , Full Of Blood .
Thanks Uh , I Feel Totally No Strength Until Now .
Dad Lost Almost $200 For The Bill ,
Medication Plus Taxi Fare *Wink*
Next , I Have To Travel There Again On 26th
For The Scanning & The Result Of Blood Test .
Money Money , AGAIN !
Me & Boyfriend Had A Betting Against Each Other ,
For Me , It Will Be A Girl & 5 Months Now ,
Bf Said , Boy & 6 Months .
Actually , It Was Already 20weeks .
Huak Huaak ! Bf Salah (:
Really Cant Wait For My McSpicy Meal & 25 Kisses :P
Baby , U Dah Janji I Tawu !

At 8pm , Baby Text Me
As He So Excited To Know The Result .
But Too Bad , Have To Wait For 2 More Weeks For Scanning .
I Told Baby About The Blood Test ,
& Those Feeling That I Had , During In The Room .
Seeing My Blood , Three Tube Straight One After Another
& Those Pain/Feelings .
Baby Being A Caring & Sweet One Tonight ,
He Told Me To Be Strong ,
As He & Our Bby Will Stand For Me .
Thanks Alot Sayang ((:
Yet , I Still Havent Quit Smoking .
I've Promised Baby Once , That I Will Quit Smoking
For The Past 2-3 Months , When I Still Stay With Hym .
The Day That Baby Get Hys Salary & Buy Cigarette ,
I Told Hym That It Will Be The Last Box For Me ,
But Sorry Baby , I Lied .
I'm Sure , One Day I Will Be Quitting It .
No Worries Okay Baby ((;

Five More Days ((:

2010-06-11T03:45:00.000+08:00

Muhammad Shafiee Bin Ismail ,
19th November 2008 Was A Happiest Moment For Me .
The Day When I Accepted To Be Part Of Ur Lyfe
Once Again & To Be The Only One In Ur Heart .
We Even Named Ourself " Mr&Mrs PalatClown " ,
But I Guess , There's No Longer In The History .
We Shared Everything In Our Lyfe ,
We Did Promise/Swear To Each Other Not To Leave
One Other Or Say The Word " Break Up " .
For Us , That Word Was Just A Word That Will Only Use
During A Big Fight , But The Meaning Was Just Nothing .
Each Of Ur Mistake , I've Already Forgive But Not Forget .
In My Dictionary , There's No Revenge Or Sweet Revenge ,
But I Do Believe In Karma ; What Goes Around Comes Around .
Aku Serahkan Pade Tuhan Untuk Menentukan Balasannye ~
I Used To Be An Important Person In Ur Lyfe ,
U Update Me Every Single Thing ,
When U're Down , U Always Have The Courage To Find Me
Cause I Did Say To U Right , I'm Always There For U
Whenever U're Feeling Down Or Happy .
Every Single Day U Call & Text Me Without Fail .
When I'm Asleep & Didnt Answer Ur Phoncalls Or Texts ,
U Did Try Ur Very Best To Wake Me Up
Just To Spent Tyme Talking On The Phone Every Night .
But Now , I'm Just A Stranger In Ur Lyfe .
U No Longer Update Me Any Single Thing ,
When U're Down/Happy , U Didnt Share With Me .
No Phonecalls Or Texts From U .
I Was The One Who Always Be The First One
To Call Or Text U Without Fail .
But When I Asked U To Call Me When U Reached Home ,
Nothing Did Appear On My Phone Screen The Next Day .
Yesterday , I Did Ask U To Call Me When Reach Home
But I'm Asleep , Only Two Misscall From U .
I Know , U Just Heck Care & Dont Care Anymore .
Yes , People Do Change .
But Why Now ?
This Is The Tyme That I Need U The Most .
Where Did Ur Love , Care & Concern Go To ?
We've Been Together For Almost 19th Months ,
Going Thru Ups&Downs , Thin&Thick Together .
& I Stayed At Ur House For Almost 6 Months ,
Seeing Each Other Face Lyke For 24/7 .
In The End , This Is How Our Situation Ended Up .
I Should Say A BIG Thank You For Everything !
Palaat , The Love That I Had Given To U Was
The Fullest & Came From The Bottom Of My Heart .
Even For Now , Those Love Didnt Even Change Just A Bit .
Maybe Easy For People Out There To Ask Me Or Say ;
" For Whut I Still Love Hym , Give Chances To Hym ,
Forgive Hym That Easily ? I Should Just Kick Hym One
Corner , Let Hym Realise Hys Mistake .
Realise How Soft-Hearted Am I ,
How Many Tymes I Give In To Hys Mistake . "
Those Are Just Simply Questions & Need Easy Answer ((:
My Answer Will Be ;
" Why Dont U Fall In Love With Someone ,
& Be With The Person For 19th Months ,
Although 19 Was Just A Number ,
For Me , To Be Together Until 19th Months
Was A Tough One . There's Many Ups&Downs .
Then U Will Know How It Feels
Lyke To Just Throw Hym One Corner . "
& Still I Cant Bear To Lose U .
Once Is Enough , But Not Twice !
Baby , I Did Ever Tell U Whut's My Plan Right .
I Hope U Can Keep It To Urself ,
& Help Me That It Goes Smoothly .
By That Tyme , I Guess I Have To Really Forget U .
& Bear All The Obstacles By Myself ,
Just For The Sake Of My Child , I Have To Sacrifice Everything .
Its Hard For Me To Say The Word 'Goodbye' To U .
I Hope One Day , We Will Get The Chance To Meet
With Our First Own Blood Okay .
No Worries Okay , I Will Take Care Of Myself .
I Cant Force U To Love Me & Live With Me Back , Bhy .
Love Cant Be Forced .
Ur Heart Will Do The Talking & The Decision .
No Matter Whut , I Still Love U Sayaang .
Take Care Of Urself , Dont Be Such A Nuisance & Naughty .
Think Twice Before U Do Anything .
May U Find Someone Useful To Replace My Position ((:

2010-06-03T01:18:00.002+08:00

I'm Not Strong Enough To Stand Strong & Prevent
This Relationship Of Ours From Falling Down .
I Cant Go Far With Ur Attitude Carry On Lyke This .
Seriously , I'm Asking For A Break Soon Or Just
Missing In Action Just Lyke That , If U Continue
To Lie & Take Ur Dear 'No Lyfe' Friends More Important
Than Me ; Who Goes Ups&Downs , Thin&Thick
With U Without Any Complains .
Friends Wont Take U Far My Dear Boyfriend .
I Know It Doesnt Work ,
I've Been Repeating & Repeating But Still No Change .
I Guess , Allah Trying To Show Me The Right Path
& What Type Of Boyfriend Is He .
Things Have Gone From Good To Worse ,
& Same Goes To Hys Attitude .

To My Beloved Hubby ;
I'm Sorry I Have To Do This ,
The Decision I Make Was Just By Looking At U ,
Ur Behavior & Attitude .
Aww Baby , U've Been Treating Me Lyke A Rubbish .
Throw Anywhere U Lyke When U Doesnt Need Me .
I Hope With What I Did , Will Wake U Up From
Ur Mistakes & Wrongs .
& Will Make U Realise With All The Mistakes U Made ,
Actually Make Ur Loved Ones To Leave U .
Btw , Last Long With Ur Ghurlfriend .
Dont Treat Her The Same Way As U Did To Me .
Baby , I Make This Decision Is Because
I Dont Want To Suffer Anymore ,
I Dont Want To Be Stuupid Lady Who Still
Be So Soft-Hearted After What Her Boyfriend Did .
But Still , I Do Love U Lyke How I Did .
Remember , My Love For U Wont Ever Change .
Take Care Baby , Dont Be So Naughty Okay .
I Still Love U Saayaang ((;

2010-05-19T09:12:00.001+08:00

No Longer Staying With Baby , I'm Home Since Monday :)
Can Meet My Babygirls Here .
But , Maybe Not So Soon ,
Baby Been Reminding Me Not To Go Anywhere ,
Unless There's Mum Or Baby With Me :(
Since I've Come Back Home , Mum Been Pamper-ing Me ,
She Spent 40 Bucks On My Clothes Yesterday , 2 Pair Of Pants & 2 Pair Of Dress .
Then , Again She Pampered Me With Food :)
Monday I Had My McSpicy & My Ice Milo , For Tuesday ,
I Had KFC Buddy Meal & My Ice Milo , Candy Floss & Tako-Yaki .
Not To Forget , I Had McSpicy With Cheese & My Ice Milo For Supper Yesterday :D
So Licking Good ! I Like Being Pampered , Huaak -__-"
As For Today , No Fast Food But , I Crave For Fried Mars .
Its Been Years I Had My Fried Mars , Till I Forget What It Called ,
Isit Fried Mars Or Fried Mars Bar Or Whatever It Called .
Lazy To Travel To Lot One Just To Buy The Fried Mars =.=
Baby Sent Me Home On Monday , Baby Came My House With Hys Mum Y'day ,
Baby Tag Along To Causeway Y'day , Today Baby Coming Here To Meet Me .
But Still , I Miss Hym So So Much :(
If Only He Know How Much I Love Hym Right Now ~

2010-04-25T02:15:00.001+08:00

It's Only 1:30 AM , I Have To Wait Till 3 AM
For Baby To Finish Hys Work .
I'm Feeling Sleepy Already , But Can't Go To Sleep -.-
Been Waiting For Baby's Phone Call ,
To Inform That He's On The Way Home .
Lambat Naah , Perut Dah Main Lagu Nieq !

In The Afternoon , I Went Down To Yew Tee , Alone .
Meet Up With Mum & The Rest .
But Then Baby Make Me So Angry .
& My Senses Tell Me That Baby Playing Games With Me .
I Cried , My Heart Breaks Into Pieces
When I Hear Every Single Word You Said To Me
In The Phone , So Harsh You Know .
I Know I'm Not The Best/Good Ghurlfriend For You ,
But I'm Trying To Be One .
I Sacrifice Everything For You ,
But What Did I Get In Return ?
Only Your Harsh Words & Your Violence .
You See , Playing Games Doesn't Make You Feel Safe .
With Your Games , You Make Yourself In Trouble .
I'm Sorry , That My Brother Have To Rush You
Down To Yew Tee With Only 15 Minutes .
& By Then , You Guys Have A Big Talk .
Sorry I Can't Even Defend You At That Tyme ,
Me Myself Kenaa Scold By Hym ,
Infront Of You Some More .
Only Tears Could Speak Up At That Point Of Tyme .
How Sad Am I , Seeing You Treated That Way .
How Angry Am I Towards You .
I Couldn't Bear With The Situation ,
& That's Why I Walked Away .
But , The Moment I Came Back , When You Guys
Already Done With The Talking .
You Came To Me , Handed Me A DAVIDOFF COOL WATER
Perfume & Cost You Few Hundred Bucks .
Baby , Only God Knows How I Felt That Point Of Tyme .
Your Salary Gone Just In A Few Hours .
Thank You So Much B !
I Didn't Even Know That , You Will
Still Remember Me While You Went Out For Shopping .
So Baby , I'm Sorry About Your Nose ,
Sorry About Everything Happened .
Forgive Me Eyh B :(
I Just Love You Too Much ,
& Don't Want You To Play Your Old Tyme Games .
I Hope You Understand After Reading This ,
& Try To Put Yourself In Other's Shoe ,
Or Think How Others Will React/Feel Before Doing It .
So Sayang , No More Playing Games With Me Okay !
Please Baby Fixed My Heart Back .

2010-04-19T16:59:00.000+08:00

Happy Seventeen Monthsary Baby ♥
We've been going through up & down ,
through thin & thick together .
Fighting day & night .
Still , I do love you from the bottom of my heart .
I don't care what people say .
God created me to live my own life .
& God also created hym to stand by my side
, guide me in life & be the one for me .

& Happy Advanced Burfday To Mama ♥
Been searching for mom's picture ,
but is nowhere to be found .
Yes , tomorrow mom's burfday .
Which is turning to her 50th already .
For this year , I'll not be with her , celebrating
her 50th burfday . Sorry mom .
Semoge dipangjangkan umur
dah dimurahkan rezeki .
I love you , mama ! (:

2010-04-07T23:00:00.001+08:00

[ Picture was taken just now , while baby
concentrating on the tv show ]

Me & Baby were watching Ratna earlier on .
But baby have to collect hys salary from hys friend ,
at Pioneer Mall . So , he leave me here all alone .
Watching tv while having a hot cuppa of milo .
Nevermind , he'll be home soon enough .
Baby buying McSpicy with Ice Milo for myself ,
after collecting hys salary (:
Yeay , i'm so hungry ! Quick laa baby -.-
Tomorrow , accompany baby to counselling at 2pm .
& Fishing with hys friends at night .
Suke suke suke !
Will be rotting at Fishing Village for 12hours ,
watching the guys fishing .
Walandey . The weather confirm kanasai -.-'
Will snap a few pictures of them .
& will update again about tomorrow's activities :P
Goodnight !

2010-04-02T21:40:00.001+08:00

Yesterday had a Big&Rough fight with baby ):
Don't wanna elaborate much here .
Thought of going home today , running away from hym .
I've packed my stuff the moment he already fall asleep .
But he called me in the morning ,
after reading my ten pages message for hym ,
& asked me to stay .
Still , I love you so much boyfriend !

Baby working again & coming home late again ):
& Much more , today is double pay .
He told me that he will be getting cash money today .
Suke laa tuh , Dajan !
As for Saturday & Sunday , also working ):
Everyday OT !
I've got no one to talk to since he's away .
How bored can i be ?!
Baby told me just now during hys lunch break ,
that next week , he wont be working .
As he want to take me out & spend hys tyme with me (:
Happy Happy Happy !
This room is creepy , & making me scared -__-"
Tyme Check ; 9:40 PM
I've still got long hours to wait for baby to be home .
Should call hym or not eyh ?
But he's busy working , nanty kene marah pulak .
Okay laa guys , this is all for today .
I wanna go calling calling baby now & tell hym .

I'm Still Craaving For HorFun Chicken !

2010-03-30T22:20:00.000+08:00

Baby sleeping right next to me . Guess , he's too tired .
Well , baby did complain to me a few tymes just now
that today's job was a tough one . Pity you , babylove !
Tomorrow baby will be working again . At 5:30pm ,
hys counselling . & Pay day . Sadly i can't accompany
hym . As he directly go for hys counselling after work .
But , it's okay , as baby wanna ask me out for a date again .
" Baby , naq makan Steamboat . Craaving ! "
Cheey , macam laa dier naq bagy .
Baby face biler tenga tydur , Aduui ! Chomel nye (:
I did snap two pictures of hym while he tydur2 ayam ,
sebab dah dengar snap sound . Show at hym & he laughed .
Right now , dier tydur baleq . Kurangs betol !

I texted mum just now at 9pm . But she didnt reply till the
tyme i ask brother at Facebook , why mum didnt
reply my text . & brother said mum's prepaid low
& he reply every question that i asked mum in the text .
Atleast she got her reason for not reply-ing my text (:

2010-03-24T18:00:00.000+08:00

~ Opps ! Did i offend you in my previous post ? =x
Just say you're jealous , if its true .
Don't hide those feelings , lady ! (:

Well , did i neglected blogger ?
Apologize me , if its true ):
Been too happy for these few days ,
taking care this small tiny ones really hard .
Me & baby have to obey whatever hys/her wants .
In-Out the toilets for several tymes -_-"
Eateateat for every three hours , maybe or more .
Suffering from stomach pains & baby have to apply oil for me .
Baby been so sweet lately .
He helps me clean the food that i ate & clean the plates .
Make me nice & cold beverage .
& even put me to sleep (:
See , how grateful am i to have a good husband .
~ Cheey ! Soon laa eyh .
Sayaang my two babies veryvery much laa !
I can't wait for you laa baby !
But , before that , i know that i have to suffer much .
Now , my backbone freaking ask for help .
Later will be muchmuch more kan b ? ):
For this small tiny ones , me & baby can bear with it =D

` Okay , i guess this is all i can say .
Cause i need to get ready to meet baby at JurongPoint .
Shakila already clean herself up & even get dress-up .
Now , it's my turn (;
Baby will take a long tyme , cause he have to
walk from Sungai Kadot to Yew Tee & train to BoonLay .
Wahlauu ! Dah kebuloh nieq perut .
My future husband wants to fulfill my craving of
Mee Soto & Ice Kacang =p
Last week was Pizza Hut . Thanks babylove !
TymeCheck ; 6:05 pm
& Still , i haven't get myself a bath .
Farewell readers ((;

2010-03-16T13:58:00.003+08:00

sorry for not updating .
been busy lately -_-'
this shall be a long post , so you guys ,
read till you drop :)
~ one post per picturee , scroll sampai bawa !

10 March 2010 ;

accompanied baby to collect hys salary with Koko .
then , waited for Eza &trained to Vivo .
had our dinner first at LJS , then went for our smoke session .
booked movie tickets ; Alice In Wonderland ,
as there's a small kid with us .
starts at 9:20pm & ends at 11:20pm .
then straight to the bustop , as we didnt want to miss the last bus .
this was the picture we took by hys lappy in the bus .
baby so macam paham , naq turon at one of the bustop
& minum pat pub nearby . duet tinggal seberape ,
ader haty ajak minum pat pub -_-"
atlast , i have to entertain hys crap in the bus .
i hardly get 1 minute of silence .
partly , there's a reason . so baby , you know i know okay .
that's how i spent my day with baby &the rest .
BUT , there's more below =P

13 March 2010 ;

get myself ready first as baby said i took long tyme
to get myself dressed up &make up .
baby have to rush home right after work &get hymself clean .
yet , baby still nag at me to speed up as we are late .
trained to Buena Vista , one of baby's work mates house .
three couples in one room , mane mauu grab -_-"
waited for the others to get ready &for the lorry to fetch us .
janji pukul 9pm tapy sampai pukul 10:30pm . kanina !
then proceed to Mahligai Manis .
had our one stick , then enter to Mahligai .
get ourselves a seat &start drinking ; The Chivas Regals .
me & baby took ; 1 full glass mix with coke & 3 full glass neat .
lastly , i took a glass of burburn coke &left a 1/4 of it for baby .
as he keep saying " tuh coke laa , taqnaq uhq . "
so i left a 1/4 for hym as he so keras kepale taqnaq pecaye .
&yet , i'm drunk after drinking just 5 glass .
baby still standing strong after having those thing .
" aiyo b ! once i start minum baleq , susah tawu naq quit lagyk .
HA-HA-HA-HA , tuh laa sape suruh bagyk minum :) "
dance with the girls for the first hour .
then dancee with baby for few tymes .
sampai penat baby aku layan karena aku .
part lagu dangdut , pegy joget .
part dah lagu trance tuh smue , satu satu taq bangon .
mase joget sambil dudok punyaa . LOL !

baby chomel laa , luahkan smue prasaan you pat i .
tapy biler minum jeq . kalaw taq minum , gaduh jeq taq abes2 .
but still I ♥ U lyke i always do ((;
at 4am , baby , me , koko & rhonda have to proceed to
Buena Vista again as the others decided to extend to Rave .
paham paham laa , kenape kite taq ikuut .
as for us , suffer from awake-ness at Buena Vista .
at 9am , i wake up from resting my eyes as they all been
making noise . taq buley tengok orang senang kejap =D
baby dah start dier peh mulot taq buley tutop untok satu saat .
12noon , me & baby make our way home .
in the bus i have to entertain hym , if not dier maraah .
reach Jurong , straight to KFC for breakfast + lunch .
as i am craaving for Burger (:
i dont have to worry , each of my craaving ,
baby have already fulfill it :D
i know he care for hys baby . LOL !

at home , both of us cant sleep .
talk non-stop as baby belum down lagyk .
so i'm the victim laa .
geryek jugak , dengar ceramah sampai malam .
8 hours b , i entertain you & hear everything you say .
mane naaq dapat oraang macam i . Chey ~
sampai cite Transformer , you dapat tengok stengah jam jeq .
okay okay dah , tuh dah terlalu full detail eyh .
off lalaland at 12am . baby not working the next day .
S-U-K-E- :)

` Random eyh ~
sape makaan chilli , dier yang rase pedaas :P
biar besarkan jantan , asalkan tuh jantan yang kaw
betul betul buley setiaa sampai ke tua .
jangan besarkan jantan , tapy bertukar-tukar .
aku besarkan dier sebab aku tawu dier yang terakhir .
dengan tuh laa , aku sanggup buat ape pon untok dier .
asalkan dier bahagiaa :)
memang kite gaduh macam couple laen , sampai tangan pon jalan .
tapy , Alhamdulilah , maseh kekal lagyk .
memamg aku taq skulaa lagyk , ader ke aku menyusahkan
mak bapak kaw pat rumah ?! taqde kann ~
so , mind your own business kay sayang !
cermin diri kaw dulu , tengok berape senang nye
jantan buat pakai kaw . badaan kaw pon muraah jugak kan .
senang jeq jantan dapat kaw . sekali cuit , dah leychiaak !
dah laa , kaw betulkan diri kaw dulu ,
baru bobal dengan aku kay .
yes , aku memang besarkan BALLS aku . why , jealous ?
oh hunney , Jealousy Isnt A Crimee :D

~ pleasee , make it fast .
baru pukul 2pm , dah rynduu baby .
lambat lagyk dier baleq keje .
taqpee caryk duet untoq baby dier ,
takut nanty ader craaving craaving lagyk ,
taq dapat fulfill kan pulak . Haha !
" B , biler mauu shake till drop ? Chey . I mean pegy Club
lagyk ke minum lagyk ke . Dapat dengar isi haty you yang
sudah you tanam sedalam-dalamnye :) "

2010-03-01T22:30:00.002+08:00

just ignore my yesterday post
about boyfriend -_-

baby iee , i'm so sorry that i make you mad .
i'm just stress-out about grandma .
i just wish i could see her & i really want her back .
now that you know the truth about the chances
that i couldn't see her for the last tyme .
it's hard for me to face everyone with my state
right now . it's not that i didnt want to see her for the
very last tyme , but i got my own reason .
seeing her corpse carried away , i burst into tears .
now , it seems that everyone didnt take me a part
of that family . so , i guess if that will make them satisfied ,
i can make it happen if that they wish for .
& i hope you will understand about this .
it's not that i'm purposely sent those harsh words to you .
just try putting yourself in my shoe okay , you'll get it .
eventhough we fight in harsh ways ,
i still love you like how i used to .
i can't go far without you , baby . you are the one for me .
you taught me what's good &bad .
the one who make the perfect decision for me .
you advice me when i get stress-out ,
make stupid jokes &faces to make me laugh when i'm down .
& you changed me into a better person in this world .
i really owe you a BIG thanks sayang .
don't ever say that you're leaving me , again .
just think , what will happen to me without you .
baby iee , my love towards you is un-describe-able ,
it's more than anything in this world &priceless .
so baby , please stay by my side .
forgive all my sins towards you & thanks for advising me .
you'll always be a part of me sayang .

' ♥ I Love You , Baby Iee ♥ '

* happy belated burfday to papa !

2010-02-28T16:50:00.000+08:00

; One fucking day for me

still , baby haven't reach home .
my head just can't stop thinking that baby lied to me .
i don't understand , movers work from morning to evening .
& overtyme till this tyme ? kalah siul police .
company bapak aku pon taqde seteruk tuh -__-'
tyme check ; 4:20pm
i just came home from waiting baby .
he didnt came home since yesterday , the last tyme i
saw hym when he was putting on hys shoes &off to work
without kissing me . kaninabeyh !

around 3am , kak pin came to baby's crib .
& told me that grandma have been taken away from ALLAH .
tears burst out & i call mum to talk about this .
next , i called baby . the moment he said , he still have to
deliver those stuff &doesn't know by what tyme he'll be reaching home ,
tears flowing down . i felt so mad , disappointed .
grandma gone forever , &for baby , work is more important than me .
or maybe i should say , he's Deck/Finding Money .
` one of your family members is dead , &your Boyfriend was not by
your side for the whole day . he didn't ask for early leave ,
just to be by your side &console you . more worse ,
he even gave many excuses every moment you call hym .
imagine that , what kind of Boyfriend is that ?!
" aku bukan senang untoq diperbodohkan eyh palat !
club maner kaw merayap , anak dare maner yang kaw kejekan ,
rumah sape kaw tydur eyh palat ?!! "
taqde orang yang keje satu hary berturut-turut ,
taq baleq rumah langsung . orang laen keje ,
tukar2 shift bukan keje sehary macam kaw .
believe in Karma baby !
& this is what i sent to koko's number ;

Dayahh: kaw cakap ngan palat , thaanks kay !
aku bukan senang macam pompan laen untoq diperbodohkan !
nenek aku meninggal , ader die console aku ?!
Dayahh: die lebyh pentingkan keje ke kejekan anak dare orang
dary aku , MATAER dier sendiryk ?! dengan duit dier , nenek aku tetap pergy .
Dayahh: taq payah laa susah2 , aku taq makan hasil orang .
die naq keje untoq DECK die jeq , bukan untoq aku . duit maner2 boley caryk .
Dayahh: nenek maner kaw naq caryk ? dalam kubur ?!
satu peh satu alasan korg bagy aku eyh !
memang korg boley ckp ngaa keje , tapy yang sebenarnye ?

I guess , i should say a BIG thanks to my DEAR Boyfriend !

2010-02-27T20:50:00.001+08:00

I'm freaking bored !
Baby went to work early in the morning &left me alone .
First , i accompany Mak to the market one hour after baby left .
Had chicken rice for my breakfast .
Second , fetch Shakila from school . Which is ,
right after i came home from the market .
Almost 4hours i've spent standing &walking .
Third , i have to shift stuff by stuff , item by item
to the other room . &Make the bed for baby .
How tired can i be , with my left foot injured , imagine that .
But , i know i just can't complain to baby how tired am i .
& i have to survive with only one stick of cigarette for
the whole entire day . Everything i have to do by myself .
Really , my life sucks without baby !
I'm hungry . Shall wait for baby to reach
home & have my latelatelate dinner .

I'm mad with myself , for no reason .
Mad with baby , for not calling me just once today .
Baby left me for 17hours right now .
I'm not sure by what tyme he'll be reaching home .
Baby really makes me worried . Humph ~
Headache is such a pain in the ass . It does killing me now .
I need some medication , but not sure where can i find it .
I'm worried about my leg , who will
apply those cream to my bloody foot .
Mama will apply it for me when baby is not with me ,
& when Mama is not here , baby will do it .
Now , both of them is not here . I can't apply it myself .
Oh god ! Why must i suffer every minute .
I just need baby by my side every second of my life !

~ I was suppose to post this yesterday .
Baby reached home the moment i was still typing
unnecessary issues , letting out my anger here .
Around 12.30am , baby knock the door .
I thought it was just someone else . The minute i saw
baby's face infront of the door , i feel like jumping up*down .
Lambat kan dier baleq , baru start keje dah ader OT -_-"

&for today , i was suppose to wake baby up .
In the end , i fell asleep at 5am when i was watching
Pengantin Kecil at youtube .
I was mad with baby , he didnt wake me up like how he did
the day before . But something make me awake from my lalaland ,
i went out &saw baby putting on hys shoe . Came towards
hym &he simply said one word " Nape ? "
Today , baby went off to work without kissing me .
I went in with sadness .
Baby told me that he'll be reaching home slightly early today .
I miss baby truckloads !
It's been two days baby didnt pampered me with hys love ):

` Will be following baby & ayah to Fishing Village tomorrow .
Same activity for every Sunday .

2010-02-22T00:58:00.000+08:00

D-A-M-N !! I can't freaking go to sleep -_-'
I slept for more than eight hours .
Cause baby left me early in the morning ,
he went to Fishing Village to send some stuff to hys dad .
Baby wake me up , &told me that he'll be home
right after sending those stuff to ayah .
But the moment i wake up at 11plus , cause i have
the intention to call brother at that point of tyme .
Which baby reminded me before he leave the house .
Yet he still not at home .
&ofcourse , i went back to my lalaland after that .
Mak wake me up , &said that we're leaving the house soon
to meet baby &ayah at the Fishing Village .
She asked whether i'm following or not .
Lyke ofcourse i will . I miss baby !
All i do was sleep , when he's not here with me .
~ Same lyke pig right , i know . Haha !
Cab-ed to the Fishing Village .
It was raining , lyke fuck . Baby played in the rain &get wet .
Naughty eyh you ! Cheey .
I smoke , &slack all the way till 7pm .
Snap some pictures but baby laa , delete those pictures .
Stupid nyet !
Baby &Shafiq ride bicycle home . While the rest ,
took cab home . I love to bully baby * evil smile *
Reached home , everyone took turn to have a bath .
I'm so relieved after that bath -_-
After dinner , baby went to sleep till now .
He already promise me to wake up at 10pm , but no effect of that .
Definitely , he'll be gone case till tomorrow .

Okay guys , i have started yawning 5mins ago .
This will do , just to make sure my blog doesn't get dusty &dead .
I'm off to my lalaland soon enough .
Cause tomorrow should get up early , to withdraw money
&buy my Dunkin' Donut at Jurong Point .

2010-02-17T17:25:00.001+08:00

` same old picture ): currently using baby's lappy
not too many pictures down here -_-

; currently waiting for baby to reach home
he's gone to accompany Wal to poly .
come home soon baby , i'm bored to death without you ):
&still craving for chocolate donut + mac's hotcake
after receive money from mama later ,
first thing to buy , DONUT , i dont care okay bhy !

On the day before Valentine ,
we went vivo with Wal & Suhaila at evening .
chilling there for quite some tymes , i can say .
the guys were drinking Scotch ,
for me & su , laughing at their jokes . haha !
we had LJS for dinner , &i should say thanks to Wal .
about 11plus start packing up &took the bus .
meet Faezah at JP &travel to RC .
lepak pon kejap jeq , sampai umah straight gone (:

&On monday ,
we went to ECP with Wal , Fared , Su &her family .
had our breakfast at geylang , Roti Prata .
off to ECP as soon as we finished our meal .
bby &Wal set up their fishing equip .
the weather really spoil my mood -__-
i caught one small or baby fish ,
&bby threw it back to the sea .
i was damn super mad with bby just because
he didnt entertain me much while he's away to fish .
around 10am , then we get our chance to swim .
&thanks to the sea , my left foot has cured (:
travel home at 6plus * i think *
before that we had our late lunch .
sampai jurong , lepak kejap &walked home .
my leg was lyke , mintak kene campak . =.=
jump off to bed for my beauty session .
me &bby were exhausted .
cause we didnt sleep from the previous day ):
i mean , all of us .
thanks to hot sun , my skin colour obviously changed ,
&my face was damn red , i tell you .
" macam baru keluar dary oven . " seydeh siak );
~ but now , i feel better (;

For yesterday ,
went PM meet up Wal , Fared , Geena & Su .
usual things , lepak at OS . sambung minom .
" bby , thanks for the Mcflurry "
clock strike 12am , sabo Naana .
" Happy 16th burfday Naana =D "
had a little fight with bby at home ):
he came to me &console me .
~ How sweet can my boyfriend be :P
but still deep in my heart , i still love you bby !

tymecheck ; 5:20pm
bby should be home any minute .
nieq mesti pegy merayap tawuk * ggrr *

; pictures of bby at ECP .
don't ask where am i , cause i'm not in the
mood to snap some pictures , not even one .
cause of ' Masai ' !

[ i'm right beside hym avoiding the camera (: ]

; fate to be together ♥

2010-02-11T16:42:00.003+08:00

forgive me people for not updating
such a long tyme ):
been slightly busy with boyfriend (;
been pamper-ing hym for 24/7 .
too much things to type in ,
bear with me okay LOVES ((;

Currently ; I'm bored &hungry ):
Baby sleeping lyke a pig !

currently , i'm staying with baby
for more than a month .
how cool is that :p
we laugh , we cry , we fight .
too many things to handle &to think .
but sometimes , those burden fly away by
looking , hugging &kissing my dear hubby :D
" baby , can i keep you in my pocket &bring
you along with me wherever i go
&when i get stress-up , i can just
take you out &look at you ."
~ haha ! okay lame , i know -__-'

when i look directly at baby's eyes ,
i felt so regret over everything i've done to hym .
regret ; scolding hym , fight over a issue ,
beating hym &lastly make hym mad .
sorry sayang , forgive all my sins towards you okay (:

i came home on a day when baby went for counselling .
they were lyke ,
" asal badan maken turon , taq cukop makan ey ? "
my mama asked baby about it ,
& i know hys heart was beating so fast that tyme .
" tawu pon takut eyh ! " (:
to my precious siblings , mimie &nadya ;
" knape laa korg maken gemok nieq ? "
i miss that small gemok , Nadya Batrisyia
&ofcourse , my darling bestfriend ; Mama )':

as for my daily routine here ;
sleep early in the morning , at 5 - 7am ?
wake up in the evening
games at facebook for few mins
movie marathon
&supper
~ that's it . simple huh .

talking about movie , i recommend you guys
out there to watch ' Papadom '
it was superb &the ending was so *speechless*
me &baby watch it just lyke 14hours ago .
the ending part make me &bby cried ,
it was super touching between a dad &a daughter .
&each day we have to think for great movie to watch ):
my brain can pecah siaa .
" can someone give me an opinion ? "

satisfied enough with my long post ?
i guess , tonyte is my last day here )':
if only i could tell baby , how hard is it for me to leave .
it would be great if he understand about this .
if i have 1 wish to make ,
i wish i can stay by your side forever .
baby , please make me stay until 18th .
&we can make one trip at one tyme .
oh ya , 16th dad's salary .
i need to call mama ,
&inform her early about money :p
" b , naq rokok ? one box each , Malboro Black ? "

valentine's day , no plan )':
" baby , naq kluar naq kluar !! "
please , come out something -_-'

okay guys , i have to go .
continue with my sleeping session .
eyebags getting bigger , fcuk !
Goodbye Loves :D

` pictures below taken on 26/1 & 3/2

I Will Always Love You , Sayang !

Baby , lets go home !

2010-01-07T03:15:00.002+08:00

A big sorry to my readers for
not updating this dusty blog of mine -__-"

Right now i'm sitting at BBQ pit with boyfriend
&hys friend . Talking crap (:
As for me , listening to some music .
Searching for wireless connection ,
&kissing baby while he's talking to hys friend =P
Hearing those boy crapping , make me yawn every second =O
Time Check - 3:15 AM
Baby , lets go home &sleep =D
Before bed , must play soccer game ferst kan -_-

Short post for today okay ,
baby's laptop dah naq mampos ,
battery tinggal 7% jeq ):
Goodnight &Sweetdream ((;

Happy 13th Monthsary Bby !

2009-12-19T20:45:00.005+08:00

Happy 13monthsary Sayang (:
I didn't know that we can be this long bby ,
i hope this relationship will last long .
Eventhough we fights every single day ,
our love is still strong ,
&i still love you lyke how i do bhiey =D
TE'AMO BABY !!

baby is still at Mlysia ,
tomorrow he will be back , jyeahh ((;
pity us right ,
13mnthsary but celebrating our ownself individually ):
i want meet baby tomorrow , i dont care !!
~ i'm bored to death without my babyboy

yesterday i sent baby &hys mom at Kranji ,
&straight home to get ready myself to school .
met babyghurls at yew tee ,
&went to the ladies to get our hair spray black ferst .
well , i get Absent for my Maths -__-'
English C , EBS CPA & Malay B
okay laa tuh , atleast i've tried right .
i spent my day with my babyg Faii at her house ,
eating junks which we bought at NTUC &ice-cream .
&text baby when i'm done cleaning up myself at home .
Rynduu sioot !

okay laa , naq tengok Mahligai Kaca uhq .
will update soon okay love =D

2009-12-17T18:00:00.000+08:00

picture above was taken yesterday night ,
at Lakeside Fishing Village ^^
well , i got much things to share but i have to get ready
&follow baby to counselling in few minutes tyme .
i've been staying at baby's crib for one week ,
&i have my fun though (:
he didnt went to Malaysia as i mentioned on my
previous post &so i have to accompany hym
since he's alone at home for the past few days .
&for today , i will be going home cause tomorrow he's
going Malaysia with hys mom to fetch hys siblings ,
but only for three days . haha !
i will not miss you . chey , fake ! ofcourse i will ):
okay , i have to run now . currently using baby's laptop ,
nanty dier membebel dah susah .
so till here alright love . i have to dress-up now ((;

2009-12-08T23:20:00.001+08:00

; TE'AMO BOYFRIEND ((;

i only have two things to update here ~
firstly , i would lyke to apologize to my readers
cause my fucking broadband spoilt &which means i'm no
longer active in either blog nor facebook .
so , i have just to wait for my new broadband to arrive (:
skrang pon kene pakai internet orang curyk2 -__-"
tuh pon slow-meloh , taqley harap jeq .
broadband aku lagyk cepat , taqya naq tunggu berjam-jam
untoq loading satu program jeq .
" URGGHH ! " ~ peh bingget

one last thing ~
that guy up there ^^ is leaving me here
all alone till Sunday .
he's going to Melacca as i did mention in my previous post .
ohgosh , i'm going to miss hym ):
but it's okay , i can bear with it for a few days cause
i've met hym last week , yesterday &today , &spent my fucking
tyme with hym , laughing my ass off for that whole week (;
but still , i will miss hym damn much .
please make the tyme past fast , i want my boyfriend !
~ Baby , we doesnt fight anymore this tyme
lyke how we used to be in the past .
i hope it will remain lyke this all along . &you already
know how much i love you right , &i cant live without you .
- Every Love Story Have A Happy Ending
I Love You So Much , Baby !

alright , till here okay love .
i'm going off &wait for my boyfriend to reach home &call me .
he's playing soccer with friends , after he sent me home just now .
mesti baleq lambat lagyk . janji kul brape , baleq kul brape .
* grr * i want to text hym now . Bye !

2009-12-04T14:26:00.006+08:00

yesterday , i had my earlydinner with baby at yew tee .
~ Tom Yam Soup Noodle (:
macam biase , taq abes .
naseb 'tongsampah' ader , dier laa yang mkn sampai abes .
off to pasar malam for tokoyaki .
then lepak &smoke , about 10pm baby send me home ((;
` you ehq , taq penah naq dgr kate tawu !
orang suroh baleq , dier lepak pat bawah . sampai rumah kul 1pagy
tapy naek train kul 11.40pm . * ggrrr *
&yeah , onthephone with baby at 1.15am lyke that .
after a few minutes , i heard snoring -__-"
i'm going to smack you soon b !
just you wait , i'm gonna make you feel the pain * grr *

i'm so !@#$%^&* boring-__-
lyfe changed since baby start working , endure okay dayahh .
well , today's hys last day at work .
kalaw taq salah laa ~
he's going Malaysia on sunday &come back on wednesday .
i swear , i'm going to suffer of missing hym AGAIN !
` nabeyh laa you b , sanggop tglkan i 3hary pasal naq laptop
nye pasal ehq . nnty i pulaq uh tglkan you -_-'
justnow , baby called me during hys breaktyme ,
&gave me three kisses .
but now , i started to miss my boyfriend ):
please make the tyme past quickly ,
i cant wait for 7pm , baby's back from work !

2009-12-02T16:31:00.002+08:00

hello babies ((;
i've take some time to clear this dirty old blog of mine
ever since i'm bored staying at home right now
my dear baby is working &leave me alone ):

its been awhile i'm meeting baby
cause he didnt have enough time for me rightnow
he went to work in the morning
&came home in the evening
surely he's tired &need some rest .
&we just communicate through the phone ~

well , in last two days
i'm having high fever &badbad running nose
baby was sweet , came down right after work
&pampered me with hys love&care (:
~ but it turn into some argument for some minute
then baby send me home at 11pm
` i love you , baby =D

ohh , &for yesterday
i came down baby's crib to spent tyme with hym
ever since he didnt went to work just to meet me (;
&i've learnt a valuable lesson ,
not to run away from hym in future ~
its been a tough fight yesterday ,
i ran away from baby when he's going to pick up my phone
which dropped two blocks away .
&he took my wallet with hym so i cant make my way home -_-
after an hour past from running away from hym ,
i called my phone &met hym under my grandparent's block
after hearing all hys stories of finding me ,
i'm so speechless &pity my baby
for running the whole JP &boonlay ):
` baby , i wont run away from you anymore okay .
then we went for our lunch at a coffeeshop nearby hys place
&slacked at hys crib , laughing our ass off together (:
baby sent me to control station at 8pm with hys bro's bike .

okay sayangs , till here aye .
i want to eat , lapar laa -__-"

T E ' A M O B A B Y (:

2009-11-20T19:51:00.006+08:00

i'm posting for 19-11-09 which is 'Our 12mthsary'
my dearest boyfriend fetched me at yew tee
early in the morning around 9.30am .
had our refreshment ; smoking &light breakfast .
then train-ed to Vivo , reached at 11plus .
booked tickets for 2012 at 12pm nye ,
&had our lunch for half an hour at Banquet ,
&5mins of smoking .
kene skrin ngan campao , naseb lepas (:
my dearest boyfriend right , rushing me to the theater .
macam maty gitu miss for few mins * ggrrr *
as usual , suffer from the stupid air-conditioner -_-
damn cold , some more our row was at side &only both of us .
we're free to do anything , changing seat , more space ,
lying down &watch the show without seeing irritating faces .
huhu , i rate 10/10 for the show .
really sad , touching &last but not least scary with those
kind of buildings falling down , tsunami &volcano .
dont be shock okay ; i cry for that kind of movie , isnt it weird .
" B , you dont need to blog about i'm crying &stuff
cause i blog about it already . hahaha ! "
after movie went smoke &window shopping again &again .
its raining , so no outdoor activities for us .
our plan of going to Marina Barrage was cancel ):

i superb loving you , syg !
&happy 12mthsary to us baby !

enjoy the pictures okay babies (:

2009-11-15T22:35:00.000+08:00

currently having a tiff with baby ):
kanina , i cant live lyke this anymore siak .
what's love without trust bhiey ?
we started to gain our trust back ,
but now where's the trust gone to ?
i've put those incident way behind -___-
you just make me go crazy &send me to grave soon .
why must this happen again sayang ?
WHYE ?!
cant you let me live happily ,
&no more fights .
pretty please baby !
why isit hard for me to leave you ?
why cant i ?!
my love for you is just too deep , baby !
but all i can do is just .. " haaisshh "
S A B A R -

i can't wait for 191109 !
a date with baby &watching 2012 (:
seriously , can't wait for our plan to run smoothly .
BABY , ILOVEYOU !

let me clear this up with you okay .
i got NO tyme to call you &said those stuff .
i DON'T need to know who's your boyfriend ,
&i DON'T look up for someone about balls okay .
i WON'T hide my identity when i did those stuff .
if i was the one who called you ,
i will definitely say out my name .
i WILL clear things out properly &nicely ,
not in a harsh way darling .
if you still don't take what i said to you the other day
about that &still wanna accuse me by doing that ,
GO AHEAD okay syg , AKU TAQ HERAN LAA WEYH (:
for me , only people with NO LYFE or YP will do that .
FYI , i got NO tyme to do that stupid thing .
this is all i got for you sayang (:

going to bed , on the phone with baby right now (:

2009-11-13T22:28:00.002+08:00

i miss the old you baby ):

currently waiting for baby to onlyne -___-
what took hym so long siaa *ggrrr*
while waiting for hym , i shall update my dusty blog (:

i spent my freaking weekdays with baby =D
we were lepak-ing at Mac'donald
&surfing the internet till late at night .
for yesterday , we had our late lunch at Mac
&surfing the net again . as my lappy runout of battery ,
we went to our 'hotspot' to find a slot to charge the lappy .
seriously baby didnt even let me touch for once .
just sit there &irritate hym is what i do *laugh*
sent baby to mrt station &reached home at 9.50pm .
didnt get to watch my chinese show , damn !
&for today , i let baby rest at home .
pity hym , everyday travel here &didnt get enough sleep .
meet you soon okay baby ((;

I SUPER MISS THE OLD YOU , BABY !
i dont know why suddenly we become lyke this again .
there's no longer a TRUST in our relationship .
you always ask the same question &get me irritated .
why must this happen again &again ,
i'm damn tired laa weyh !
dont you know that I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH !
but why must you treat me in this way , hah ?!
going to Zirca , do you think i can trust you ?!
obviously NO ! those promises wont last !
i dont want to be hurt again &again !
why is the world so UNFAIR ?! WHY ME ?!
WHY ?! can anyone simply answer that !
I WANT MY MAMA BACK , PLEASE )':
only she understand me , only she loves me !

2009-11-06T22:00:00.001+08:00

[ No One Can Tear Us Apart , Understand ! ]
" Not Even You , Bitch ! "

H-E-L-L-O sayang2 ((;
dayahh mendak gyler siak skrang !
dayahh taq tawu palat ader dekat maner skrang .
tady biler dayahh dah sampai yewtee ,
dayahh kol umah dier , nenek dier ckp dier taqde .
padehal dier ckp dier teros baleq , lepas dier antar dayahh .
humphh , biken gue panas uhq nieq budak !
sampai haty ey dier tipu dayahh )=
[ eee , asl aku bbl gini siak . taq biase ! ]
actually i'm bored to the core right now .
i've check-ed my &hubby's tagged&fb .
now , i got nothing to do -__-'
&that explain why i'm blogging .
i text-ed hubby just now , but still no reply )=

i met hubby just now ,
he fetch-ed me at JP in the morning .
but still he's the one who LATE !
we didnt meet each other for the past two days ,
because of some issue ,
that make our relationship become disaster .
so cruel kan that someone , trying to fork out FAKE story
&make us fight non-stop just because of her !
taq sangke aku kenal ngan orang gini macam .
" bhiey oh bhiey , knape laa kaw jatoh haty ngan pompan
macam tuhh . sungguh MEREPS prangai nyer ! "
but ofcourse , we're still in good-terms .
i spent laughing my ass off with hubby just now ,
hubby said i laugh lyke madwomen .
how dare he said that , he was the one who make me laugh .
talking about our past-tyme ,
when we're in a relationship for the past 4years .
maseh 'cinta monyet' lagyk tuh tyme .
i was on the run from hym , because [ hys reason ]
kekek laa sia biler dengar baleq pasal cite lamer ((;
" sayang , i had fun with you ,
&i want today to be everyday ! "
I'm so in love with you , sayang !

~ countdown to OUR BIG DAY ;
13 more days ! huhu ^^

2009-11-02T19:00:00.000+08:00

[ saayaang ! ]

for today , i went to hys crib .
biase jugak , stare at one another face .
chey , no laa . lepaskan rynduu ((;
firstly , we camwhore !
snap here & there .
syg's rebond hys hair , sungguh mcm pompan .
cube tengok ^^
so as my mom , she said lyke 'nyah' .
&ask hym to curl hys hair back .
macam laa dier naq . hahaha !
after that , lepak-ing at hys room .
guraugurau , dua2 pengsan .
lagyk hujan lebat &hubby sungguh enjoy tydo .
sampai taqnaq bangon . * ggrr *
at 4.30pm , off to JP . bought hubby's late lunch .
&train-ed home .
here i am blogging &for hubby sleeping lyke pig .
standard uhq tuhh ,
perot dah kenyang , lepas tuh tydo .
bodohnyer nyetnyet !
i have to stop here .
i'm going to meet ayeen at yew tee mrt soon ,
to pass some stuff .

TODDLES ((;

some pistures ;

2009-10-31T23:04:00.007+08:00

current mood ;

HAPPYHAPPYHAPPY ((;

my saayaang is back !

&that's why i'm so happy to the core .

syg , travel-ed yewtee after he reached woodlands .

he came here straight away just to meet me ,

aaawww , isnt he sweet (=

&that's why i love hym so much !

the first thing ,

i took away hys cap & look at hys hair .

haaha , dah straight dooh .

chomel bangget laki aku nieq *nxtstop kembangan*

well , what can i say kann .
sampai ader orang naq kejar2 kan dier ,

&then fall in love AGAIN gituq ey ?

agaknyer laki kaw tuh burok sgt ey ,

muke dier taq seakan-akan laki aku ?

tuh pasal kaw naq contact dier , kejar2kan dier ,

STMF ngan dier , bagy dier fall in love ngan kaw lagyk ?

hah , ghurl lyke you cant just stick to one .

too bad laa syg , HE'S MINE !

pity you ey darling .

but konek bukan satu dalam dunia nieq tawu .

okay , i'm not going to fight over ONE ball .

&i'm trying to forget those incident anyway .

timecheck ; 10:55 pm

i'm wondering where is my syg ?

is he still at u.t with koko or jurong to meet fared ?

&hubby so irritating today ,

disturb-ed me lyke drag-ing me to hell siaa .

kaninabeyh sia you , blamed me for being irritating .

'the pot calling the kettle black !'

baru 3hary taq jumpe , dah giniq .
kalaw setahon , maty aku kene irritated . ~ huakk !

" nyetnyet , where are you ? pls come home early ,

i want to talk to you laa nyet ! "

okay till here okay babies ,

i must prepare for bed &wait for call .

toddles ((;

2009-10-28T02:55:00.000+08:00

[ 2009 , Raye Picture outing with hys family ]

time check - 3.00 am

i cant go to bed , just because of one cup of coffee -_-'

and now , i have the courage to change my blogskin .

because boredom strikes !

suckss , i simply cant organise things nicely with this skin .

~ booo -_-"

well , syg already gone to hys 'lalaland' at 1.30 am .

and leave me alone , hate you bhiey . fake !

i understand , he have to go to work early in the morning .

and he should have an early night , or else nnty mcm panda !

i know you really want to buy 'Couple Phone' for our 1yr anni ,

but dont work over it too much and i dont hope for it either .

saayaang going to leave me here alone for three days )'=

as he is going to Malaysia on friday .

sorry bhiey , i cant follow you . passport dah maty , i mean expired .

i will miss you lyke hell laa giniq =

cause there's no talking on the phone late at night ,

didnt get to meet you , kiss you , hug you .

and cant listen to your crap jokes .

i will miss my 'abang body' !

( huaakkk , taq perlu siul tuh dayahh ! )

i'm tired of laughing right now .

well , i'm watching 'Laksamana Do Re Mi' with Mimie .

mengadak jeq keje kite dua nieq =)

i'm sleeping soon , after this show end .

alright till here okay babies ((;

izah keep pestering me cause she wanted to use the lappy

* gggrrr * irritating man you ! ( fake ajer )

; i watched this video countless times

i miss my love laa !

my saayaang nyanyi powweerr ((;

M-A-R-V-E-L-O-U-S !

[ jahat siak b , kecyan Wal taq dapat nyanyi ]

2009-10-23T19:50:00.010+08:00

* what goes around comes around syg *

what is your intention syg ?

i trust you but now what happened ,

you broke those trust .

~ uuuurggghhh ! fucked up uhq sial !

why does this 'SCANDALOUS' cant stop ?!

taq sangke , aku diamdiam kaw pijak kpale .

kay , taqpe palat .

hary nieq hary kaw , besokbesok kite taq tawu .

aku cume naq ckp THANKS uhq !

slamer 11bulan nieq , aku TAQ CONTACT ,

TAQ JUMPE JANTAN LAEN !

tapy kenape kaw yang buat nieq smue uhq sial ?!

buat ape kaw taqnaq lepaskan aku

kalaw prangai kaw SHIT gini !

sial uhq , grow up uhq .

zaman aper sial maen blakang nieq smue .

tahon aper cinta monyet bro .

skrang zaman setia uhq .

stiap saat kaw tanye aku jumpe ke

cntct jantan tuh smue untoq cover line kaw kan .

sebab kaw buat tuh smue ,

tuh psl kaw naq step MENGAMOK ,

buat PRANGAI smue .

padehal2 , * adr udang disebalik maggie *

kaw ckp aper , korg KAWAN JEQ ey ?

disebabkan kawan laa , kaw jatoh haty -_-'

kaw taq ingat cite dulu ?

( nieq bukan ungkit ey , cume ingatkan )

sedangkan kahwin boley cerai ,

mataer pon boley putus per .

asl taqnaq aku revenge ? taqnaq tanggong perit ?

nnty kan kaw boley rase aper yg aku rase ,

best oit ! KAWAN JEQ kan .

nieq blom masok yang kaw tipu aku lagyk tawu .

kaw pakai name org , kaw ckp chotet tuh chotet nieq .

padehal yangg advise psl kite pat kaw ,

suroh belikan tali kasot tuh smue

bkan chotet , tapy pompan tuh .

then what , you want me to THANK her for that ?

thank her for making us fight ,

thank her for advising you ,

thank her for patching us together again ,

thank her everything , lyke that ?

mataer kaw nieq kan JAHAT ,

yang kaw PANDANG RENDAH ,

kaw HINA , kaw MENGGATA .

smue keburukkan aku , yang kebaikkan dorg .

by thanking her , why not confront her ?

kan best , dary kawan jady musuh .

korg kan nmpk kesabaran dan kelembutan aku .

naq tengok aku pey kasar ngan org , aku hilang sabar ?

WATCH & LEARN , okay .

no thanks uh , aku pey org taq suke REVENGE uhq .

menambahkan dosa aku jeq ,

yang tanggong dosa tuh korg kan ,

so for what aku naq intefere .

hary tuh mmg kaw naq sgtkan kite break ,

disebabkan aper yg dier nasihat kaw ,

kaw rase simpati untoq aku .

aku taq perlu uhq simpati nieq semue ,

kaw boley simpan buat org yg perlukan simpati kaw tuh .

nieq kaw kate syg , taqley dipisahkan , nieq jodoh ?

tapy asal prangai kaw SIAL , SUNDAL ?

readers , let's just sit back and

watch the show which have just started .

the World War Three coming soon ((;

hubbhiey ;

~ syg , dah bace kan .

pegy tag pat tagboard i !

2009-10-21T22:22:00.006+08:00

( the memories of 191108 )

what a luck !

i've made a worst decision in my lyfe ,

and that just happened few minutes ago .

i hope with my decision ,

you wont suffer anymore .

live your lyfe okay love .

think what is right and what is wrong

cause i'm no longer there to take care of you .

i dont wanna hear that you bring knife into you room

and lock the door again , okay ?!

promise me , no more cutting .

damn stupid man you , taq sayang diri sendiri ey .

last thing , bear this in mind okay .

i will never stop loving you , syg .

you are ;

the sun in my day , the cloud in my sky ,

the waves in my ocean , the beat in my heart ,

the diamond on my ring , you're my everything !

thanks for brightening my world

with the warmth of your love .

Goodbye love )'=

See You When I See You , okay .

need help ?

just text or call , i'll be there for you ((;

* I Love You From The Bottom Of My Heart !

once again , MUUAACCKKKSSS100 for you syg ! *

i'm locking myself in my room right now ,

typing while tears rolling down

and drop at my lappy .

i'm hungry since one day i've not eaten .

but i have no appetite to eat my late dinner .

i know i'm suffering my ownself ,

so what's a big deal ?

i'm the one who fall sick , the one who will be dying .

for what you care , fucker !

i'm totally in my mood swing ,

dont disturb if you dont want a tight slap frm me .

for friends out there ,

i'm sorry IF i didnt reply any of your tags/msgs .

maybe i'm going MIA for a mean tyme .

goodnyte lovelies ((;

~ why am i so 'jiwang' siakk ?!

2009-10-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling down right now .

i'm confused , stress , sad , hurt all at one tyme .

why can't my lyfe be a perfect one ?

isn't it useless for me to continue on living .

hubbhiey , i'm sorry bout just now .

it's not my intention to say all that stuff to you .

please forgive me shayang .

you know i love you right .

what's me without you , bhiey ?

please keep your words , i don't want to lose you again .

thanks for stoping my tears from flowing down my cheek .

i feel safe right now .

apparently , i've said everything out .

everything , my worst part of lyfe .

and now you know everything .

i just don't want you to carry my burden as well .

i'm sorry , if i hurt you .

i love you , hubbhiey <3

i didnt know that defending and helping someone ,

will make me lost one thing in my lyfe ,

FRIENDS .

i know it's my fault , for being too SOFT .

few questions ,

do friends will always be there to help you know matter what ?

~ well , not a single .

what type of friends does you have ?

~ will only find you when they are a loner .

can they be trusted ?

~ ofcourse no .

do they worth to be your friends ?

~ dduhhh !

well , i should say congrats to someone .

cause she already in a good term with her friends .

and which make her forget someone who have been with her

when she is alone , and helping her much .

well , that would be the last one .

cause i'm not gonna be SOFT any longer .

and i guess , its not a big deal to lose one bunch of you guys .

cause i still have many more outside there ,

a better one , bitches and jerks .

which are better and can be trusted more .

one big clap for that someone ' minahrep yang taq menjady '

huaaakk , so pity of you .

only dares to follow people style .

GET A LYFE OKAY FRIENDS [ ! ]

2009-10-07T20:40:00.000+08:00

( my one & only hubbhiey )

firstly i would lyke to apologise to my readers

for not updating my blog .

i've been away for a mean tyme

and now , i'm here to update what's happening .

to be specific , i will keep personal stuff to myself .

and share only necessary info/story *smile*

it started on 16 Sept ~

happy moments with hubbhiey .

i really had fun with those jurong's clowns

they make stupid jokes and more .

every single day , i laughed my ass off .

we are no different as a owl .

we sleep early in the morning ,

where people went to work/school .

we do our activities late at night .

i was pissed off with hubbhiey on some of the day ,

cause he left me at home alone ,

while he went out with hys friends and come home late .

* gggrrr * mcm naq cekek jeq nieeq matrep !

maken bertambah matrep laa laki aku nieeq ,

dengan kening matrep dier yang aku cukor kan tuhh .

waahduhh ~

for my love , PalatClown ;

i miss you damn much laa shayang .

i know its just a few hours ago we met ,

but still i miss you . it's dfferent now ,

it's not lyke what i had been through for 3weeks with you .

everyday when i woke up from my beauty session ,

you were there hugging me tightly .

we kiss , we hug every second .

cook meal for you / both of us .

cleaned the house together . ________ together .

slack with your bunch of monkeys (cheyy fake) late at night

and went home early in the morning .

challenge soccer game , winning eleven .

remember that night , at arena ,

i was sleeping beside you while you guys

karaoke for 3hours and took cab

to JP to buy supper , Nasi Lemak .

everyday same routine , slack , eat and sleep .

ohh i forget something , went to arcade

to watch you guys play maximum tune

and to safra for cs .

kanina , you guys don't understand ' tired ' ey ,

fake ajer !

but that's gonna stop there for a mean tyme .

don't cry kay bhiey ,

seeing tears flowing down your cheek ,

it make me feel sad

and making my tears burst lyke waterfall .

cheer up okay , i am here with you

and not gonna be leaving you alone laa shayang .

just bear with it okay . i miss you alot syg )=

2009-09-15T21:58:00.006+08:00

( seri , uknw iknw * evil smile * )

sorry babies for not updating

' dusty ' right , haiyaaa

i'm so lazy to update actually

but it have come to my nerves

and i cant control my anger any longer

wanna know what guys , ?

theres a freak out there

who really doesnt have any originality ,

sial uhq , say people but she herself also the same .

people nowadays , tsktsktsk .

go and check out your face at the mirror okay =D

this is what people call ;

" the pot calling the kettle black "

which means that what they say about people ,

same goes to them as well .

copy-ing people's idea ,

ohh lyke what the fuck .

dont you have your own creativity hunney , ?

pity you , of your useless brain .

copy-meow laa you , bitch .

i felt sorry for you ,

saying people is what you lyke to do ,

but you didnt have the courage

to admit your own mistakes .

haishh , i damn sick with this people .

cant you mind your own business syg , ?

2009-09-10T22:55:00.000+08:00

Ghurlfriends acting so awkward nowadays

i'm lyke a middle person

who currently confused

you guys there ,

i just don't want to get involved into your problems with her

its about you and her

and this got nothing to do with me okay

so count me out , thankyou

i went to school to finish up my education

so i could take my N-level cert soon enough

and want-ing to go off from that school soon

not creating trouble with anyone out there

btw guys , i'm not siding nor defending anyone here okay

080909 ~ hubby sleepover

as we miss each other lyke hell

spent tyme with hubby from 11.50 pm to 4.30 am

and from 4.30 am onwards , having our beauty session

hubby woke me up at 6 am as he need to go to work

090909 ~ English Paper 1 and 2

well , paper 1 manage to do

sweeeettt (=

and for paper 2 , saket haty uhq babe

last page part map dier tuh

aduhhh ~ buat sembarang uhq senang kate

no hope siul for paper 2 -_-'

100909 ~ no school * jump up&down *

theres maths extra class today

just for 2 hours

i didnt attend as i woke at 11.50 am

when hubby called me during hys lunch tyme

and continue till 2.45 pm

i know lyke pig kann

` i'm fasting today ass

abeh suke , lol

hubby highlight hys freaking hair

hey ass , you making me jealous , stupid you

yeayeahh , hubby getting pay tomorrow

which means i get my curry zazzle soon (=

shaayyaanngg hubby gyler the babi punyaa ~

' to whom it may concern '

ey bohsia sundal

puki kaw dah gatal sangat per

dudok tuh biar sopan , jangan naq kangkang sane sini

kaw tunggu konek masuk per sial

balak aku dooo , taqkan naq kebas siul

biken panas uhq nieeq bohsia

kaw jangan sampai aku nmpk muke kaw uhq

kalaw naq muke nye pecah , set time , date and place okay

aku setia menunggu uhq

naseb kaw baek ey bohsia

palat blang aku biler kite dah sampai rumah

kalaw dier blang aku pat bawa , tyme tuh jugak uhq

aku pegy depan muke kaw sial

aku bobal straight punyaa ey

biken hal uhq nieeq bohsia katekk

` my dream phone babe , Nokia N97

hubby buy me this please , hahhaa

botak jugak dier nieeq taq lamer lagyk

There is always some madness in love .

But there is also some reason in madness .

~ dayahh

|| i love hubby very much ||

2009-09-05T16:45:00.006+08:00

i'm posting about yesterday okay =p

~ addicted to cadbury choclairs

craveee siooottt

after school rushed home

siap-ed dhen went out

took cab to boon lay

reached grandparents house at 2pm

early siakk , wahlandey -_-'

hubby start working

8 am - 5 pm , lamer siot

was waiting for hubby to finish hys work

this tyme round plan taq hancur =)

hubby gave me a call once he reach home

and told me to leave the house now

i do as what i'm told to

walk-ed to hubby's void deck

and off to Jurong Point at 7 pm , Qilah tag along

we are suppose to break-fast at Pizza Hut

~ chey , step puase rabak jeq =D

but due to full house , we have to wait for more than 45mins

seydeeehh siul

hubby was angry and throw all hys madness at me

" laa , lu per hal ? naq mengamok pulak . kecoh uhq "

window shopping just to let the tyme flies

~ kecyan Qilah , kepenatan

by 8.30 pm , baru dapat dudok , baru naq order

mangkok jeq * grr *

bodohh nye jurong , sengkek =)

order Hut's Couple Meal dine-in ,

and a Lasagne take-away for hys mum

Qilah was full after having her ferst slice

hubby had 3 slices and 2 slices for myself

sumpah , kenyang rabak

" naseb taq order Curry Zazzle , if not wasted kan bhiey "

after meal , antar Qilah baleq

and for us , lepak-ing

cab home at 11 pm

and i'm exhausted , sumpah taq tipu

enjoy the pictures kay , some of the pictures at hubby

~ hubby with Qilahh

~ enjoyingg

~ snapping my picture , asshole

~ i love hubby very much

~ result sucks

2009-09-02T21:05:00.007+08:00

guess my blog is dead -_-'

sorry ey babies for not updating

paham paham kan laa

N-level is just 5 more days

and need to concentrate more about school issue

~ chey macam paham

on monday i received my ' Report Slip '

mungkin ader yang menages , ader yang taq

let me share with you guys ~

English - C

Malay - B

Maths - U

CPA - B

Business - C

seydeh kann

lagy2 tuh Mathematics

aiyooo '

~ buck up laa dayahh oit

( " LU PER HAL ? NAQ KETAWE , PEGY JAHANAM" )

sudah ey , sikit sikit jeq okay -_-'

sayang , minta maaf ey

kebelakangan nieeq kite taq semesra sperti selalu

yes , couples do fights

but not straight for one week kan

gaduh , baik , gaduh , baik

tuh jeq laa kite buat untok 3 hary lepas

i cakap baik2 , you meninggikan suare

bile i dah meninggikan suare , baru you naq bbl baik2

bukan i sengaje meninggikan suare i pat you

i betol2 mintaq maaf kay

* baby coming tonyte , SLEEPOVER again *

' I Sayang You laa bhiey ,

hanye satu-satunye ; PalatClown '

|| why shayang ||

2009-08-28T17:58:00.012+08:00

' ♥ specially for daddy ♥ '

buat kekasihku yang tershayang ;

aku ingin meminta maaf atas semua kesalahanku ini ,

aku shayang kaw dengan sepenuh haty ,

kehilangan dirimu bukan kemahuan ku .

mungkin aku harus terima kenyataan ,

yang kaw taq lagy mencintai dan menyayangi aku .

aku taq bisa melupakan kaw & kenangan kita dgn mudah .

terima kasih aku ucapkan ,

kerane mencintai aku buat 9 bulan ini ,

kasih sayang yang telah kaw berikan kepade ku ,

akan ku simpan di haty buat selamanye .

♥ Muhd. Shafiee Bin Ismail ♥

i love you damn much from the bottom of my ♥ '

you are my priority , my everything , my life .

whats me without you shayang ~

your name will always remain in ♥ '

truthfully speaking ,

no one can replace you or , can take your place in my ♥ '

you are loved by me =D

|| rryynndduu daddy ||

2009-08-23T22:30:00.004+08:00

ferstly i would lyke to apologize to everyone

for not updating my blog .

i'm just too lazy to update * wide smile *

thursday and friday ;

midnight strike ,

which means baby sleepover .

sorry b , i tinggalkan you sorg2 .

i ngantok gyler laa .

atleast i tinggalkan you kul 5 gitoh ,

lagyk 1 jam jeq dah kene bangon .

as for friday ,

i skip myself from school .

lepak-ing with baby and had our breakfast .

baby went home after few minutes .

evening , went hospital .

wahduhhh ~

i have to drag myself there .

saturday and sunday ;

i have to skip myself from fasting for few days ,

due to a reason .

went to ' hair flair gallery '

start at 4plus , end at 8pm .

kiwakk , 3 jam aku dudok situ , sorang lagyk .

boley maty kepenatan .

meet baby after that ,

~ SSAAPP

kene ketawe .

suke b , bau-bau rambot i .

home sweet home at 9.30pm .

baby said naq sleepover ,

check2 member tipu .

` penipu haram jada [ ! ] * ggrr *

( kan dah kene pekat nye )

and today , i spent my day at home .

with mimie , mama , nadya and qilfi's entertainment .

and not to forget my precious baby , palat clown .

' thanks laa korang , entertain akuu '

~ currently i'm msg-ing with daddy

he's making hys way to buy cigarette .

taqley pegang duit pey orang ,

asyek naq blanje jeq .

take me as an example ,

save money * wide smile *

|| dayahh shayang palat ||

2009-08-19T23:00:00.006+08:00

tuesday;

movie marathon with daddy [ ! ]

' Where Got Ghost at 1510 '

met hym at Lot 1 , 3.05pm .

we were actually late for the movie ,

but still , we were taking our own sweet tyme to get there .

buy snacks and stuff , bukak pintu

~ SAAAPP

movie dah start ,

seydeh pe tetinggal scene ckit .

i recommend you guys out there to watch it ,

kekek laa siak .

buat orang suspend jeq lebyh .

baby was annoying ,

disturb me from watching that show .

hahahha , FAKE ey b =p

we were irratated by those people who sat behind us .

i asked baby this question ;

" kalaw ader orang dudok sbelah you abeh mulot dier taqley tutop ngok cite nieeq , aper you buat ? "

baby replied ; " i sepak muke dier uhq "

cant imagine siak , orang ngaa syiok2 ey ,

skali pusing muke irratating dengan mulot nye taqley tutop .

wahduhhh irratating sungguh ~

after movie , went to roof garden dhen off to smoke .

proceed LJS and head to yew tee .

that's how we spend our day togther .

" b , taqmu blang orang ey pasal i terkejot part2 yang sial tuh .

buat malu jeq . dah terkejot

abeh pelok orang , huakk ! '

; koko , sorry uhq taq ajak kaw . kite plan pon last minute ,

dhen some more , tuh untoq kite

peh anniversary . jangan majok ey =D

wednesday ;

Happy 9th Monthsary shayang ,

i love you damn much tawuk ,

we've go through so much together .

i cant lose you laa b .

" i wrote your name in the sky

but the wind blew it away

i wrote your name in the sand

but the waves washed it away

i wrote your name in my heart

and forever it will stay shayang "

|| i will make you mine again ||

2009-08-17T22:52:00.001+08:00

i shall just update about today ,

i'm not gonna elaborate about what happened few days ago ,

its really annoying and pissed me off .

i'm sick of crying ,

but still we are not as together lyke before ,

for those who understand , shut up kay .

keep it to yourself .

i told you right , i'm gonna make you mine once again .

but it really takes tyme ,

we have to be patience .

` i was almost late for school today ,

saw faiichulla at front gate ,

went in with her , dhen she went to class

and for me , went to discipline room to sign in -_-

temperature taking and stuff ,

didnt even have the tyme to

study maths for few mins .

prelim maths paper 2 ,

starts at 8am and ends at 9.30am ,

i just glance at my paper and

keep on flipping page by page ,

i put my paper away and

put my head down .

simple right `-_-

when the clock strike 9am ,

i start solving one by one and

leaving alot of blanks behind .

~ sian uhq -__-

` movie marathon at faiichulla's crib ,

watched Jangan Pandang Blakang Congkak .

okay laa , klakar bukan seram .

i spent those tyme with ghurlfies ;

faiichulla , safriza , ctiie and emilaa .

i went home straight after the movie ends .

` at 4pm , meet baby at control station .

lepak-ing at koko's void deck ,

dhen went off to makan at cafe lobby .

dare baby to take 3spoon of ' nonsense ' soup ;

chicken rice soup + chilli + tomato

+ lime + lemon tea + cucumber

add together become ' shitos soup ' .

if he take 3spoon of that , he will get a shoe ,

a shirt and a pants from me .

it was so difficult for hym at ferst ,

cause koko and me make hym disgusted with that soup .

' atlast member amek lebyh dary 3 sudu , huakk '

deal is a deal kann b .

went off to herman's void deck , lepak-ing again .

around 7.45pm , home sweet home .

` tyme check - 10.35pm

baby is otw home .

asked hym to stay over , but baby dont want .

seydeh siakk ='(

taqpe laa , next tyme jeq .

baby was stuck with this word ,

which he keeps on asking me to say it

every few mins when we were on the phone .

" sshhaayyaanngg daddy " * in tone yang manje *

i mish baby damn much ='(

kay laa , waiting for baby's call =P

|| FORGIVE ME BABY ||

2009-08-12T20:24:00.006+08:00

; sincee 19112008 [ ! ]

will be updating for few days post okay babies (=

didnt get a chance to update just because lappy spoilt ,

screen blank , walandey -.-'

but alhamdulilah it works now ,

lets get started kay * thinking *

sunday & monday ;

rot-ing at home ,

watch NDP via television -.-'

baby went out with koko & friends ,

drinking session , tsktsktsk '

at 3plus in the morning , baby went up to my crib =p

makan , bareng & joke around

ohh b , i love you so muchh [ ! ]

for monday , watch televison 24/7

baekk . lappy taqde , tv pon jady uhq .

fuck , it kills me to death tawuk taq .

mendaaaakkk jer .

tuesday & wednesday ;

PRELIM ? [ ! ]

wahdoii ~

not quite prepare yet siaa .

ferst paper was , ENG paper 1 & 2 .

which ends at 1.15pm .

went homee , kedebak kedebukk ~

off to 669 , blajar ngan koko and seri even join us that tyme -.-'

disebabkan koko laa , aku hilang semangat naq blajar .

taqley concentrate [ ! ]

at 3plus 4 , pegy makan pat foodfare .

wait for baby & yan at 6plus ; control station .

baru nampak muke , dah gaduhh . ~ aduhhh

tuh pon sekejap jeq , dhen dah okay * smile *

paisey uhq , tiba2 air mate jatuh -_-

BUT , nieeq nanges dengan bersebab ey bukan unreasonable .

baby lied to me . he said kan , kul 2pagy gitoh dier kol dhen bukak pintu .

but kan , darah naek jeq . orang tunggu sampai tetydo , satu bayang pon taqde * grrr*

meet baby early in the morning , plan naq spent tyme jap dhen proceed skulaa .

tapy , plan hancur . ~ gaduhhh -_-

sampai nasi goreng pon taq termakan ey b .

late for school , naseb laa Alastair ader tady . terserempak pat office .

~ urghhh [ ! ]

maths paper 1 , andd i have done so badly .

just because something were interrupting me during the paper . boyfriendd ~

those words were hanging around in my mind during that period of tyme -_-

hantamm jeq , salah pn salah laa ey . dah biase maths fail * sigh *

straight homee , gud ghurl kann =D

~ isaap uhq siak , gud ghurl .

dudok rumah , layan karena nadya , mimie ngan ain . ~ wahduhh

okay dah ey , cukop . brape panjang lagyk . naq tenangkan pikiran jap =)

; my daddy love

i know i'm wrong , i let you sitting alone and wait extra 19mins .

its not my intention laa b , maafkan i kay .

yang mase you jalan tuh , i naq kejar tapy jauh sangat ,

kaki i taq mampu naq jalan secepat gitoh .

i promise it wont happen again =

the moment you call , i was jumping joyfully with a big smile .

but , when i heard those words and tone of yours ,

that happiness feeling lost to nowhere .

criously , i love you b .

never even cross in my mind that i'm gonna lost you for the second tyme .

lyke you said , " you are my last one "

i really mean it and i hope , you mean it too .

we have been through thin & thick together .

crying on each other shoulder , listening to one another darkness .

" NUR HEDAYAH BTE AHMAD SHAYANG MUHAMMAD SHAFIEE BIN ISMAIL

DENGAN SEPENUH HATY DAN IKHLAS MENCITAINYA . "

|| be strong ey shayang ||

2009-08-04T21:05:00.001+08:00

hey babies =)

sorry for not updating for more than a week ,

understand understood kay =D

err , lets begin ;

25 July - 1 August ;

sleepover at baby's crib ,

our daily schedule ;

wake up , lepak-ing , went home in the morning .

same activities for one week ,

for you guys maybe boring ,

but for me , i did enjoy myself .

cause baby were there beside me 24/7 , huakk [ ! ]

for 31 July ,
went yew tee with baby ,
meet koko andd yan in the afternoon .
meet mama andd nadya at night ,
shopping , dhen proceed pondok .
lepak-ing at pondok dhen went off to v6 .
fighting with baby when the sun about to rise ,
andd baby decided to went home .
thanks to koko , for accompany-ing me .
therefore , i went home on the 1st of August .
i really mish ghurlfriends ,
didnt attend school for 1week 2days ,
i promise gfs , i will be in school tomorrow .
i mish alot in school , andd i really need to catch up .
cheyy , lyke real laa dayahh =p

to my daddy , palatclownn ;

i really mish you alot ,
i mish those tyme when i see your face before i went off to lalaland ,
andd when i woke up from my beauty session ,
you were hugging me tightly .
i mish spending tyme with you ,
although it was only 1week we were together in the same roof .
i mish that tyme lyke hell ,
i will keep those memories foreverr baby .
i akan sentiase ingat mase mase tuh ,
walaupon bantal busyuk you skrg ader pat i ,
itu taq same dengan aper yang i lalui untok satu minggu bersame you ='(
maafkan i , kalaw kenangan tuh buat you nanges setiap malam .
the truth is ;
i tahan air mate biler i jejak bilik tuh tady ,
hanye taqnaq melihat you menanges bile air mate i jatoh nnty .
stay strong kay b ,
nieeq semua cobaan , kite kene alami semua nieeq =D

* wonder-ing *
kenape air mate aku jatoh nieeq ,
please ey , STOP [ ! ]

|| i have to do this by my own ||

2009-07-25T01:30:00.000+08:00

hey dhere babies ;
sorry for not updating ,
been busy with stuff uhq .

wednesday - friday ;
been lepak-ing with baby , ipen , faii , koko ,
till late night , sampai taq pegy skulaa .
suke ey faii , mengumpat pasal orang .
hahahahaas ;

just one more day left for me to ;
SWEET SIXTEEN .
andd guess what , i have to celebrate my burfday on my own .
baekk uhq , akuu suke sangat !
taq ku sangke , akhirnye aku dipisahkan dengan mama .
wahduhhh ~
aku taq kisah , walaupon aku tawu satu hary nnty aku akan tetap kluar dary tuh rumahh .
sumpah , aku taq meyesal .
cume susah untoq aku teroskan hidop tanpe mama , ader paham ?!

staying at faii's house ;
" faii , bangon luh . teman akuu , nnty nenek tua datang , macam maner .
kaw nieeq , tydo jeq tawuk . aadui ~ "
till here jeq luh ey ,
naq kol baby dhen naq tydo , !
goodnight babies =)

|| i lovee baby too deep , ! ||

2009-07-19T20:40:00.003+08:00

let me just update a few things ,

friday 17 July ;

didnt attend school ,

went to baby's crib early in the morning ,

tydoooo , lepakkkk .

at 2.30 proceed to yew tee ,

had our lunch andd meet koko .

off to koko crib dhen mine .

touch-up , salen baju .

kedebakk kedebukk ,

naek bus kul 4.30pm ,

to bukit batok .

dhen lepakk bawa ,

yang laen smue kemas barang2 untok pindah .

naek atas pon pasal mahgrib ,

respect gitohh , cheyy !

turon baleq , lepak sampai kul 10lebyh .

andd home sweet home , !

saturday 18 july ;

again woke up early ,

off to bukit batok .

angkat barang2 , send them to respective houses .

kedebakkk bedebukk ,

baleq kul 8pm gitoh ,

ngok cite Syurga Cinta ,

layan karena izahh .

izah test my IQ by playing IQ puzzle ,

tengah2 malam ey maen tuh puzzle ,

baekkk laa .

midnight , chinese show .

ferst ngok berdua , brape minute gitoh ngok sorg .

baekk , kene sound orang gyler .

naq buat mcm maner kan , cite tuh dah klakar taqkan taq ketawe .

no feelingg per .

dhen on the phone with baby !

sunday 19 july ;

for the last tyme ,

went bukit batok ,

last check andd took leftover item .

penat tawu taq ,

cheyy , padehal taq buat pape .

tuh jeq luhh ,

home sweet home at 7 gitohh .

' happy eight monthsaryy baby !

my love for you grow stronger each day ,

you are my priority laa !

ingat tawu ,

taq selamanye selingkuh itu indah .

i lovee you laa biol ! '

pictures on 17July ;

sweeeet , ! one family , cheyy no laa !

jangan ganggu pacarku laa ass , !

wahduhh , ! biler naq jady kenyataan nieeq dayahh ?

|| ignoring those incident ||

2009-07-15T21:23:00.004+08:00

i dont know what's wrong with me this month ,

fightingg with baby jeq .

" i'm sorry uhq b ,

this is not what i want . ! "

but i really hate the part ,

when i was talking with youu ,

andd ghurls were calling you at second line .

conference , andd i have to stay mute .

listening to the conversation ,

andd i have to stay calm with all this ,

if this have to happen every single day .

i terpaku biler mama tanyer ,

" taq saket haty , dier bbl ngan pompan laen ? "

remember yesterday incident ?

youu didnt even tell me ,

that ' someone ' is on the line ,

andd i was the one who question youu ,

when " call is waiting by other party " pop-up at my screen .

now , one by one finding you .

for counselling session ehh , free free uhq .

' they ' didnt even think or what ,

i as your ghurlfriendd , also need you .

dorang jeq uhq ader masalah ,

masalah masalah i smue i simpan uhq ,

stakat taqnaq tambahkan beban youu .

i ignoring this nonsense ,

just because i love youu ,

andd i dont want to fight with you over this issue .

but please ehh ,

korang korang jangan naq amek kesempatan , !

this is ' fate ' dayahh ,

youu have to be strongg .

jealousy came unexpectedly ,

youu cant blame it .

i hope he knows that i really love hym ,

andd taq sia-sia kann hubungan kite .

~ i dah taq mengidam pizza hut lagyk ,

cause i had them for dinner just now .

so , the pizza hut thingy is no longer needed .

i've told you right ,

i want ' baby ' , !

[ only boyfriendd understand this , taqmu kaypoh ! ]

but , i want you to keep your money .

andd save them for important stuff .

just forget bout the present .

upcomingg ;

3 more days to 8 monthsary , !
10 more days to sweet 16 , !

|| rynduu luh bodohhh ||

2009-07-14T17:35:00.009+08:00

sunday ;

kenduri andd cukoh rambot ,

for my niece ,

Qisya Qistina . !

kenduri only for family members ,

which starts at 11am ,

siangg per . !

andd guest are to come down from 1pm - 6pm .

slackk , laughing our ass off . !

menyekek jeq keje kita .

ader sampai 3 roundd ,

kecohh . !

sorry guys ,

yangg pakse pakse akuu karaoke ,

lagy lagy diana ,

suroh 'duet' ngan dier ,

taq kuase uhq ,

suare mahal babe .

hahahhaas , !

spent 7hours , turon naek turon naek .

well , rumahh pat atas jeq per .

boley tydo jap ,

prangai siakk dayahh . !

by 6.30pm , kemas kemas .

yang kite sekluarge , lepak pat atas .

hahhahhaas , !

monday ;

didnt went school ,

penat luh gitohh .

met shuffie at yew tee control station , 8am !

dhen train-ed to Lavender ,

had prata for breakfast ,

actually naq makan Mac ,

tapy taq dapat caryk ,

seydeh per , !

at 10am , he went up for job interview .

while i was seating at the rc nearby ,

macam budak bodoh , tunggu sampai 50mins .

asshole kann , !

train-ed to boon lay ,

meet baby ,

lepak pat bawa .

ketawe sampai nanges ,

rapak per , !

nieeq luhh keje si dua badot ,

buat lawak taq abes abes .

by 1.45pm , went baby's crib .

standard luhh .

lepak ehh ,

please , taqmu pikir bukan2 . !

sepak taq salah tawuu ,

hahahhaas , !

tuesday;

againn , didnt went for school .

overslept ,

damn it , !

padehal dah janji faii siak ,

sorry ehk shayang ,

taqley salahkan uhq ,

prangai kaw , OVERSLEPT . !

aiseybedahh ,

tydo 12jam siul .

prangai pigg !

" sorry ehk b , i tertydo bile onthephone ngan you . "

andd so wake up from my

beauty session ehh at 1 sharp ,

( hahahahaas , faii please entertain . ! )

amek faii luar skulaa ,

dhen went yew tee , andd proceed to her house .

lepaklepak , teman dier ngok cite ' jangan tegor '

kecyan , member takot ngok sorang2 .

hahhahaas , !

~ walauu , !

boyfriendd blom bangon2 lagyk .

tyme check , 5.30pm .

ngorok jeq tawuu .

duadua taq py skulaa ,

semalam ngan niary .

sehati sejiwa gitoh ey .

people , please dont take this ' couple ' as your example .

no lyfe punye orangg ,

hahahahhaas . !